i begin by reminding some of you and
introducing others are view
to the commitment but i was made at the beginning of this year

to study delusion

in hopes that st nicholas will soon be here
is a of
ah the proposal was made to study delusion this year
the devotedly and compassionately study delusion
understanding that this study can come to fruit as
supreme enlightenment
the mood are those that are enlightened about division

a buddhist or those who practice studying delusion
a long time until they finally completely understand what delusion is

so stunning delusion
is can be quite difficult so there are teachings
to encourage people to study them
people do not need any encouragement to be deluded
human beings and other living beings are born deluded
we are neatly diluted
you don't have to teach a child to be possessive of their own toys
they learned quite quickly this is mine

i often remember the story about the when i was in my early days of studying japanese i learned the construction for the possessive so for example this cup
ah
this or it can be called are this is a teacup it can be called a jawan
for it or we can call it
so i can say this is my teacup and japanese i say
what taxi know jawan so the way you need to game the way you make the possessive is to say your name and then know and then the thing
so what toxin or karrada my body what toxin or on my
my teacup
what you home my book
seiler that and night i had to make an effort to learn that and one time on
this tiny little japanese boy was came into the dining room as and center and his name was again and so he was called again john which means
guinea
and he came in a room he saw something he said gen john logan's your know
and i thought he just to barely walk and barely talk but he's able to form that construction
pick that up really fast so being possessive is something which nobody has to teach us how to do and we can be possessive of things that nobody else thinks we own
we can you know we can we can actually think children seem to think that they own the whole universe they own their mother their own their father
and you don't have teaching that you can tell him yes you do on me but you don't have to tell them that they think they do anyway
my grandson or macy i used to come to green gulch and there was a area had gringos where they have lots of like our children's equipment toys little tricycles and skateboards and
there is a malls and other things to have children play with and he told me or one point he said all those stockings to be mine
i use left it here
he just made that up you know
well that's all the toys for his
i didn't argue with them
anyways
our living beings
living beings humans and other living beings like dogs dogs are also you may notice quite possessive of their bones in their their breakfast
the house
cats are can be quite possessive bowls are quite possessive of their heard they think they own the cows
mother mother mother a cattle are possessive of their children day they sometimes will
kill someone who seems to becoming towards their offspring so
living beings especially animals are deluded and possessive and
ah self concern naturally
so now we're studying this and as teachings about how the mind comes to be that way how the mind ah appears
two itself how the mind appears to itself falsely
so the mind is generated that the teaching that the mind is generated in such a way that the mind tells itself that is not itself
mine says good morning i'm not you
the mind appears to itself as objects and objects appear as though their separate from the mind this is our basic delusion
but the mind appears as though it dualistic with
and now your appear that way but the mind is
predisposed to believe this false appearance

for some time i've been so
studying and talking with people about
these teachings about the way the mind the way the mind is that we met the way mental states are whether way all mental states are and how they function
and
and i wanted to do that today too and i did

but i also want to mention that
traditional then teaching
he's not so much about directly bring up these teachings about
the deluded mind so that it can be studied
it's not usually the zen style to bring up the teachings about delusion sold the delusion can be studied and understood
the conditionals and method is more to pr to
dramatize
the mind dramatize delusion
express the delusion in in dramatic action as a way i'm understanding it
there's a a story and not one of the
noted is and teachers
that the he was living in the monastery with his many students and the superintendent of the monastery came to him and said teacher you haven't given a talk for a long time
would you please come and give a talk and he said i'm an office in by maybe said okay
but why they said okay or not he didn't go to the to the hall or toss are given the monks were assembled he came in
and
i think he got up in his seat or maybe he didn't get on a separate just went up to his seat and then he left
and
then the superintendent went to his room he said a teacher
we asked you to give a talk he said you would and but then you left and he said
hmm
scholars give talks about the buddha's teaching
and commentators make comments on the buddhist teaching
i'm just that
all zen monk gimme a break

so one way look at the story as well holds and master don't give talks about the is what did they do
they demonstrate the teaching part of they do it role in this case you asked him to give a talk they go into the room and then they go back to their then they leave and go back to their room
what did they do get to give a talk now did they demonstrate the teaching they tried he tried what can did demonstrate
well he demonstrated teaching the beings are deluded
he demonstrated delusion and luckily demonstrated the delusion of the superintendent or the other monks or himself he demonstrated illusion of all beings
he dramatically enacted the world and delusion by going into the hall and and leaving the hall he could have got up on the seat and waved his hands and then got down or it could have given a long talk
the the way he thought was like that the where he he taught by going into the hall and leaving

what did the monks learn
i don't know what it amongst study i don't know did amongst study when he came into the room
i don't know
do i recommend that they study when he comes into the room do i yes i recommend
that the devotedly study
their own delusion when the teacher come to the room it's not like okay here comes a teacher and she just gonna sit down give a talk and then ominous start studying my decision or the teachers going gonna give a talk and and i'm going to hear the dharma
no that's not what i'm talking about i'm talking about before the teacher comes in the room you're studying your own delusion the teacher comes in and you studied the delusion of the teacher coming into the room
teacher gives a talk he continued to study your delusion your delusion about what well that the teachers giving a talk
and that you're not
and at the teachers now you for the teacher is you
some people think the teacher is them well that's a delusion from people think the teachers not them as a delusion
the teachers giving the dharma dharma you are not you that's it those your delusions
so
maybe all amongst except the superintendent
just for super worst he was studying their minds
they knew to do that they're studying their minds and when the teacher came in the room they continued and when the teacher left they continued and maybe the superintendent was to and you're just pretending not understand why the teacher came in and left
but he would have just dramatic he was say okay here comes a teacher while this is really great delusion
this is wonderful delusion the coming of the teacher for delivering of the truth ah how wonderful
right now i am dramatically performing delusion
and you are to are you studying yours are you studying mine are you studying our delusion digitally belong to you more than it belongs to me how does your delusion belong to me more than you and you only own your enlightenment which he which i belong to me at all
so some of you may feel like well i don't i'm not really a possessive my delusion you can have it
i don't i don't need to go and take it yours
but my life and then turn on mother
i don't know if you can take my enlightenment
i'll think about it but for now i think i'm gonna keep it and you can have my delusions and also you can keep your delusions to
and if you have the enlightenment handed over
some people think that they think i'm not deluded but still if the teacher comes i'd like to get some more enlightenment
that's fine to think that there's an old allusion to study to compassionately study the delusion whatever it is
huh
so someone my citizen is like canal
rather than explaining the teachings then demonstrates them
same goes beyond explaining the to teaching to enacting it
okay but wait a minute
i shouldn't stop there a shepherd it should go beyond the acting it be on and acting it to explaining it
susan should be stuck in not explaining so the teacher should come back and give a talk
maybe but maybe they don't want to invite him again
maybe that better things to do than watch old men walking rooms or walk out
he will go some place for some people get some really nice talks
from memory like
just the right amount of time

so the zen tradition
you know he usually at least is polite tory the teachings of the buddha's
the teachings are the buddha or that
there's nothing in the universe outside mine
there's not there's no phenomena outside the mind
whole phenomenon are manifestations of the mind

so i just said that if i just the little talk about mind i gave you a teaching about the mind
am i simultaneously demonstrating
can i demonstrate that there's nothing outside mind
how could i demonstrate that
how could i be so that you would realize that what you're seeing now on what you're hearing now it's not outside your mind how can i how can i do that
i'm here wondering about that
i got here wondering how i can be so you realize that i'm
i'm who you really are
and you don't think so
and you who i really see you who i really am and i don't think so

what
can you just did as a question was the right moment
i was good but not that this not
the last with the last was riding next one's not
but isn't the you ask the question did you hear so fast it
you want to talk now
could you wait for you can you wait to talk a little until them later pardoned
you want to clarification
do you mean you only explain something
can i please explain something when you want me explain

with
that's correct
that's right
the way things are are not how we see them
the way you are is not how i see you you are not the way i see
how you are i do not know but i didn't know i don't know i'm not going to stop there i'm gonna
my mine's gonna create a story about you but my story by you is not you
i have another
could you can you wait for the next one thanks
my story about you is not you your story about me is not me
and what seems to be my story that it would be good for you to study this is not my story
and it's not yours but you could study
you could remember that we could remember that we could remember
that's what is appearing to us is not the way things are
but
we need to be kind to the appearance if for kind to the appearance wisdom can be born if we're not kind to the appearances
the wisdom will be obstructed
what once was a zen master they say an ambush on i never met him after he supposedly lived about two more than a thousand years ago in china
ducharme means
from a virtue mountain or no no virtue ducharme
so the story is many people appreciate in this person
as a very kind teacher of the first
and he was famous for saying if you understand you deserve thirty blows me if you don't understand you deserve thirty blows
if you do understand you also deserve thirty blows

interpreting this to say i would say if you understand delusion if you know if you don't understand delusion you deserve thirty blows
as encouragements you deserve thirty blow is to encourage you to understand delusion
thirty blows of kindness to encourage you to study delusion you deserve it if you'd understand delusion
and you don't understand delusion until you study delusion thoroughly
studying delusion halfheartedly we will not understand it
so you deserve thirty blows and encouragement to study delusions study delusion studied delusion study division study delusion study division studied the television study delusion study the study delusion studied illusions study delusion
i'm not quite the thirty at i'll stop
now if you do understand how come you should get thirty blows
if you if you understand if you're enlightened about what delusion is if you're booted why would you get thirty blows
because then doesn't get stuck on the on buddha we go beyond buddha softer your mood after you understand your delusions
that has time to go beyond buddha
and
thirty times to be encouraged to go beyond but ago beyond would go behind border go behind understanding
go back
do not understand
when you really understand you can go back and give up your understanding
saturn gosh i'm todd
and i hearing about that i've always felt that's a pretty powerful teaching
pretty powerful teaching

would you please go get me the book of serenity
it's behind my seat in a toxin

once again know that the typical zen teacher the typical zen teacher doesn't teach about it
the mind
of delusion to help people that demonstrated
what we should go beyond and i have gone beyond not teaching about the mind of diversion i've gone beyond not teaching about it took teaching about it
but today i'm also going beyond teaching about it and now i'm returning to teach about it
i'm so happy that i'm
oh look the book a surrender thank you
here's a book of serenity
doesn't say that so this must be the buckets or entity has now put someone had put distance district and something that's not the book of stories
said book renting underneath the dust jacket to maybe this really is the book of serenity
and in this book there's a story about this
i found a piece of paper and sister got the names of some of the one this is paper
some of your names are in this book of serenity
like a linear your names in here
and deirdre is it here
wow
and gordon your names in here
says right here glen johnson
and where is his piece of paper
it's been a part of the brooks
about that guy who wouldn't give a talk

anyway us
a fourteenth story in this book
is about this man who said if you don't understand you need thirty blows of encouragement if you do understand you also do
the strong's and detroit
so they say
that this teacher ducharme usually thrashed the wind
and beat the rain
hollering at the buddhas and refiling the ancestors
this monk in the story i'm going to tell you his errors fill the sky
why did bush on let him go
so here's a great power powerful and teacher right
i had an attendant
and as a tenant's name was her
he or you could say is a tenant name was
cork
the com mr hawk or monk costs for attendance have
so one day that the attendant was doing his job of attending to dijon and he said to the teacher
where have all the sages gone where have all the ancient sages gone
an addition said her what
handy attendant said
the order was for are flying dragon horse
but what is shown up is a lame tortoise
and da schon
let it pass
or let it rest
either way to say it is dushanbe didn't say anything
how many blows was that was at one or thirty
usually he thrashed the wind and beat the rain
hollering at the buddha's now this monk says to where have all the sages gone
this is a big mistake don't jersey
where have they gone this is a big mistake
is that not a bad at the
hubbard
is this the sages
is this the ancient same here
is the teacher the ancient sage
is the student teaching things is the ancient stage the meaning of the teacher and student
he's our meeting now
right now is this meeting
the ancient sages
anyway the boxes were have the sages of ancients times gone and thirteen with him
and a monk says the order was for a flying dragon horse but are lame tortoise as shown up and bush on the zen master let it rest
the next day
when don't shine a windows machine came out as a bath
maybe the a tuna game a towel or something he patted the attendant on the shoulder
and the attendant said
ah the old fellows finally catching on
and shine let it pass that at rest

huh
ancient teachers have
deeply and suddenly studied and expounded all the states of mind
through meticulous analysis
and these teachings have been transmitted
and one of them are one of the examples his book i had here which is called the summary of the great vehicle were in
the function of the mind is painstakingly and lovingly and subtle analyzed by the great bodhisattva
a song of

and if you study this text
he might quickly become weary
now and green gosh in two different study groups were studying this text and
sometimes people get weary
we are studying these teachings of analysis but some people say people don't like this
they just simply
you know demonstrate these teachings without the study
but
we shouldn't get stuck in demonstrating them with studying them we we need to go beyond demonstrating them to study them and then go beyond studying them to demonstrate them
another case in the book of serenity number thirty seven
out with through zen masters to famous and masters ones a teacher in one's a student but the student is a grandmaster to they they used to call him little shakyamuni buddha
so the teacher's name is question
and the students famous young shot this all the story also occurred more than a thousand years ago
and the story has been the story occurred i'm no in the story occurred but it's a story about something happened more than thousand years ago
and story might be almost as old as what is allowed
so one day they were teachers didn't work together and the teacher says to the students
all living beings
are deluded
the same teacher said that he was have recording something but anyway all sentient beings only have deluded karmic consciousness
at all they got they think they've got something better but that's not what the got they've got diluted karmic consciousness and as all they have
the boundless and unclear with no fundamental to rely on the but the comic consciousness all softer
and then tiga says how you test this and experience how are you enact this
and the student the ocean said if someone comes i say hey you
if he turns his head i say what is it and if he hesitates i say all living beings just have deluded karmic consciousness
boundless and unclear with no fundamental to rely on and the teacher said good
that's a good weight to dramatize
the functioning of cosmic consciousness
however it doesn't say there but i'm saying to you that this testing this enacting of the teaching
that living beings just have diluted common consciousness the enactment
is itself can be itself enlightenment
if you say to a buddha hey you the buddha turns her head
the enlightened one turns her head when you say hey you
if you say what is it to the enlightened one thin line one winks
if you sit here you and the enlightened one hesitates than the life and one
we just have deluded common consciousness

we have diluted common consciousness does a way of working with it the verifies that we have just a little comic consciousness and is another way of working with it
the understood is the understanding of it
so one way of working with it is too
hesitate to work with it
the hesitate
to be deluded common consciousness which is all we are
and unhesitating we have just demonstrated delusion diluted karma consciousness the other ways don't hesitate
and demonstrate diluted common consciousness also
but with no hesitation
demonstrated wholeheartedly
and that is the understanding of it

so according to this teaching
we've all got plenty of delusion
none of us are short on delusion
we all got comic consciousness and as boundless as are actually ah
ah it says a bonus and unclear but another translation is the word for unclear could be translated as sir
bobo it's a way said the way for listing it is bobo
how we got his kind of confidence is boundless and bobo and bomber means vague but also music giddy
comic consciousness as giddy and giving means excited to the point of disorientation
we've got a consciousness which makes it very difficult for us to be wholehearted because it's disorienting it's easy to hesitate when you're disoriented
so
one of the ways
to meet comic consciousness is to diligently compassionately study it
include diligently wholeheartedly engaging it
this teachings may help you engage it
engaging it may help you receive the teachings
suzanne is playing with these teachings about the mind but also playing with the mind so that the mind becomes a teaching
engaging cosmic consciousness understanding and watching to see if a whole hearted about it
and it's i mentioned this morning
enlightenment lives in stillness
so part of
engaging karmic consciousness wholeheartedly is to engage it and stillness
part of engaging giddiness wholeheartedly is to engage giddiness and stillness
to be still
with an excitement
that can be disorienting
when got the excitement a got to giddiness we've got the and clarity of god's day and all this has no it's insubstantial we can't get ahold of it from got that and we think we can
get a hold of it we think there is a foundation and thinking that there is a foundation is very exciting
or very depressing and it's in depression can be quite exciting
so exciting that people think of terrible things to do to themselves to get away from
delusion
how can we be kind and loving
to this comment consciousness
just moment give question or comment or to make
yes

she's been studying the ravages of attachment
have you been that good have you been studying it in a kind way

yeah
but you sometimes you are kind kind towards it
but when it's really baffling she has trouble being kind to it
so
carmack consciousness is often baffling
can we be kind when we're baffled
i say yes we can learn that we can learn to be kind to the bafflement and bewilderment and etc we can learn to be kind to it but it's hard to learn to be kind to it it's not easy
we the buddha's message from the borders is not easy to learn to be kind to baffling disorienting state of mind
but the buddha says i have learned to be kind to them and i have understood them and i am enlightened and i am a peace
not by eliminating
but by being still
i been truly compassionate to bafflement doubt
confusion
and giddiness etc
forever
yes was just reflecting what you are
saying so stillness still it's firebrand
this stillness is vibrant and also the character than that the ancestor a dog uses when he says
all this enlightened activity occurs within stillness the character he uses for stillness also means silence
so it's a silence and stillness that's vibrant that's full of enlightened activity
noise and movement are also vibrant but the a vibrant with carmen consciousness
i don't
people some people are really diluted and don't engage their delusion and are very alive jumping up and down saying it's mine and mine is mine
they're alive but they're also frightened and an aggressive because when they don't they're not in stillness and silence so let's same situation the boot is right there with this historical person
and in the buddhas in stillness with his sister with his hysteria and the buddhist great vibrant activity is right there with the hysteria but the buddha is
realizing the stillness and silence
with the activity and delusion and then we have the activity of the buddha's
which is very alive
so as but it's hard to be very loving
and part of me loving with delusion is to be still with it and to be quiet with it

i'm sure you're short on the stillness with with and the loving of the
yeah so this is written this is a challenge for us
to be loving and quiet and still with hysteria
great challenge
but the is say
it's possible you have the potential to learn this and it will be very helpful not just to you but to all beings if you could learn us and you can but it's hard to learn it and i the buddha who had learned this had a hard time learning it so you will do
if the ancients had a hard time of ancient masters had a hard time and if the current masters had a hard time then we probably will have a hard time and you're telling us one of us doesn't have a hard time and i'm shy share your difficulty i think how they took up here also
do have some difficulty with their karmic consciousness
police in the back of my mind she hasn't belief in the back of her mind
then
somehow somehow their experience
somehow
we or i say i because many of us may be doing it i'm not me
i'm not listening to i'm not listening to their experiences whereas if i listen to their it's poor day that it makes it easy but i know whoever teaches to the teaching if you listen to their teaching if i listen yes if i listened to those teachings and be with it
key to stay with the teaching
it's it's it's fine i'm fine but i don't therefore i go to this yeah if you stay with the teaching sort a lot of us i think when we think when we think that what we're hearing is the teaching we can be quiet and still with it
so if somebody comes and gives it gives in talks and as it sounds like a kitchen to us we often go oh and were quiet and still with it look good
and then but if but if then things change and the the appearance is not of teaching then it may be like what i can't be quiet and still with not the kitchen
but you can be quite with not the teaching and that's part of the reason why teachers sometimes
perform not the teaching
to see if now he required with when i was acting in a woman i was well behaved and i was acting like a teacher you are calm and quiet with me know i'm acting like a madman and you're having trouble being calm and quiet with me so now go back and be in a reasonable person again searching be become and quiet
but then i'll come back again
as a non teacher
to see again can now can you become quiet with not the teaching and sunday may say yes finally i can be calm and quiet with not the teaching
yeah i heard you can i will howard like you to be that so we have to go sometimes her
it's very much like that
the people were com with to teach her coming maybe common or he just gonna come and teach us going to be teaching when of com is gonna be so serene and wonderful and encouraging and knowledge are going and i'm having trouble being com with a teacher going
yeah the talk and how can we have the teacher all the be the teacher all the hear that
how can we have the teacher be all the time as or working towards that everything be the teacher which means to be calm and grateful and quiet with everything
like that okay
may i
could stand to have the place where
the
the
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and save them
hello
rather than the days are nonetheless
turn it around
hey
well ah the counter
now we had the opportunities to have unhesitating launched