Facing Change and Realizing PeaceĀ 

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where your definition of new people
that that one way to do walk this walking meditation
when you start
start with them your feet
with one foot ahead of the other
maybe with the tower of the backfoot at the instep
of the front foot
and and then check out your breathing
notice whether inhaling exhaling
and then when you
and yeah so watch your breathing for little bit and then shift your weight so that your most of your weight on your lead foot
and then when you're ready on an inhale start to lift the heel of the back for
shifting even more weight onto the lead foot
and then when you finish to inhale and start the exhale step
and as you step shift your weight onto the foot that you stepped with stepped onto shifting more weight onto the lead for the new neighborhood
and then when you're at the end of the exhale as you start to inhale lift the heel of the back foot and went near
finished with the inhale stopped again
so step on the exhale start the
start the step on the inhale finishing the inhale step with the exhale this is a kind of an easy way to synchronize a walking with the breathing
and that the andrew
a bell is rung and then we walk rapidly back to our place and so the pattern is this road goes this way
this rule goes this way the front room was because this way the second row goes that way the third rows that way
and person at the end of the third row
yeah goes around the corner the prison at the end of the first row goes around the corner
on this side so variant john would go around the corner
and i'm laurie would go around the corner right
and the people in the back come our way up the front and got and make a row down here and go down and join that wrong
and then try to follow the personal front of you
and if they draw some strange place than we have interesting things happening
the title i think the title of this series of
meetings he has something like facing change and realizing peace
i start with an image which
i've used number of times
yeah it's kind of a her rendition of something i read at the beginning of a book of a novel
the name of the novel is the famished road
and my my way of saying it is like this
i mean my way tonight is like this
in a sense
there is a great river
and it's unborn
and the river
has become covered over
by a road
and the road has spread out to cover everything
but and
since the road was originally or since the road is basically a river since the road is based on a river
it's always hungry
it's always desiring
that's basic image
i want to desiring
it's really desiring
the river but
it's it's a out of touch with the river so doesn't really know about the river anymore so sometimes it's thinking that is desiring different things are going on on the road
there is there is life in the river and there's life on the road
there's change in the river and there's change on the road
however in the river in the change of the river
there's no hunger
there's no desiring in the river but on the road
in the changes on the road there's desire there's hunger and it's insatiable
on the road it's insatiable

this image you know in terms of
ah more familiar
buddhist language is that the
yeah that there is there's life
and there's a life that's changing and flowing
and it's unborn doesn't have beginnings and ends this river that i'm talking about it doesn't have a beginning and end
doesn't have birth and death has change it is change but it's not like birth and death
it's a life without beginning or end
ah but living beings
who actually are living in this river and who are the river
because of past
imaginings because of past
what we call action
they are they now have present action and this action as a consequence
the embodiment
of the action is the embodiment
of a storytelling
it's the embodiment of the history of storytelling
it's the body of the history of action
action which ah
hi action which comes from past actions
which makes a road out of a river
there is change on the road and there's change in the river
there's a way of practicing with the change on the road
there's a way of practicing with the history
of our karma
that opens up the road and allows us to enter the river again
and back in the river
because of because of relating to the road in a way called practice
when we re enter the river we actually can stand to be there
without making a story about it
without projecting
beginnings and endings and birth and death on it therefore we can be in the river with no hunger
and but there's a certain kind of
a wish or a certain kind of aspiration which is not hunger
arising not hunger arising from being stranded on the road of cosmic consciousness
and that's the wish of those who have practiced with the road in such a way as to become free of it and every entered the river
with the ability to to tolerate it and lived there
without making further roads out of it and there's a wish there
to practice their and to show beings who are stuck on the road how to practice and realize that this road is basically a river
so on there's a kind of change on the road one of the ways typifies the change his birth and death there's birth and death on the road there's life in the form of birth and death or life in the form
reem of beginning and ending
in the river there's life
but without beginning and ending
and one those who can live there are free
and those who hire completely free wish
the beings
who are living on the road to learn how to deal with the road in such a way that they become free of the road
they become free of the embodiment
the in crustaceans
the sedimentation
of storytelling of cut of comic consciousness that this way of practicing with that
such that one becomes a free of it it's it opens up and were dropped back in to a different kind of life
and in on the road there is a there are moments
and the moment sir
have a past and futures and present
and one teaching his work with the present moment
the present moment however is the present moment of the road
and as a way of working with the present moment of the road where we actually know
study it were studying a moment of its of
of constructed experience with study a moment of the results of our past imaginings or past karma were studying a construction
and there's ways of studying or scrutinizing or analyzing the structure in such a way as to realize its context and it's limits
and practicing with those again become free of it
the way of practicing with the road the way of practicing with the embodiment
of the history of our action
or you know the history of our storytelling
and that's our storytelling together a lot with everybody else is storytelling we have our own story telling
which makes the road and then we also have
assembly of everybody storytelling which also makes the road but
there we cannot see other people storytelling
but we can see our own
we can see the results of our own and everybody else's
and that result is called again birth and death and in birth and death
we're hungry and we suffer
can you turn lights on
i basically
the way of practicing with the road were practicing with the embodiment
of our
imaginations that the rivers or something tangible
it is basically it's a it's an ethical practice if the practice of being ethical
and i've
ha said many times before this this ethical practice practices sometimes three aspects
an aspect of
of restraint and aspect a practicing what is wholesome what is conducive what is advantageous to
becoming three of the road
and restraining what distracts us from the path of freedom from the road
and the third
form of
training ethical training is to serve all living beings
to serve all living beings those three aspects those are ways of practicing on the road that leads to freedom
from the road
freedom from the habit
the road is habitual way to be in the river
such that we don't even see the river anymore because the rivers not a habit
the road is an addiction is is an addictive way to live is an addicted way to live in the actual beginning the unborn flow of life
this ethical training is a way to deal with addiction habit
comic consciousness the road
the doesn't exactly make a better road
it might seem like it makes a better road but that's not the ultimate point as a temporary point like for example a better road would be a road that had a
that said road everywhere
yeah a better road to be a road where everything is everything you saw said embodiment of your past carmen
hi i'm just what you're looking at is the embodiment of your past karma in other words what you're looking at as your mind that would be a in assumptions a better road if everybody just gently told us that all the time
yeah that would be a road which would be conducive
two more actions which are conducive
to freedom
because this this way of practicing with
the road habit the habit road because he's ways of practicing this ethical ways of practicing how are threefold that's a kind of like an example that there's some that there's some detail or some analysis involved in the way of relating
to our habits
and that threefold analysis is short for
no further analysis
further scrutiny more ah you know ongoing scrutiny and tell until you see through ah
until you see through the habit until you see the way of being that's not your habit
the free of habit this free in other words
freedom is freedom from habit
and i you know the word recovery is a recovery process and so is it the
the you know that the word recovery which is applied to an addictive behaviors
ah oftentimes it means i guess recovery from the addiction
but there's also in the process of recovering from addiction there's a recovery from a world a lost world which we hunger for
it's recovery from the life
ah that's unborn
it's recovery of a life that unborn recovery of a life where there's no craving as recovery from a life where there is craving due to the habit when there's habits we crave
it's not just that we have a habit of craving
when were involved in habits we're hungry
the habits make us hungry they don't satisfy our hunger they make us hungry
the road doesn't satisfy our hunger for something it makes us hungry
and yet
the habit is to build more roads in hopes that the next road will satisfy the hunger
but it doesn't
practicing ethics with the road is partly to remember
the not be this to restrain
using habits to satisfy the hunger
and do and restraining using habits to satisfy the hunger is one of the good things to do
but there's other good things to do which don't seem like restraint
which are conducive
to becoming free of the habit
like generosity
and so on
okay so that's a summary of
how to be free and at peace
when we find ourselves on hungary on the road hungry
with in the midst of our habits and addictions this is heart of the country of them
and i think i'd like to say at the beginning which is
hah little bit kind of different way to talk about ethics
ah is to i you know
is to look at ethics as arm
your sense
our responsibility
not so much with somebody else is telling you that is your responsibility and not even what you're telling yourself as your responsibility
but more your sense that you are responsible
that you are responsible to yeah that that you are responsible
to act in a way that will lead to your freedom and peace
that you're responsible for that that you feel actually
if you excuse the expression
to become free
have a life of hunger and find a life
ah that's free from that hunger
to find a sense of of a lot of responsibility in your heart
and the care of that for my my son
the respected

hi don't know anybody feels in this room anyway any obligate
austin or any responsibility to do criminal acts
i don't know if anybody has a fiscal responsibility to to act in a cruel way
but most of us can see
most of us sometimes see the appearance of criminal acts or the appearance of cruelty most of us see that and then sometimes we see
ethical behavior and kindness
right but you sometimes the ethical behavior and kindness or another we don't you see the appearance of
of kindness and generosity and carefulness among living beings
and don't you sometimes see carelessness
so that's what does the things we see we see these kinds of things
in our world of habits we see these kinds of things ah
on the road
and the way we see them
is that they have birth and death that they're that they're rising seas their beginnings and ends and
we you're hungry even when we see ethical behavior
because of the way we see it were hungry
like we think there should be more ethical behavior than there is
and some people do want there to be more ethical behavior they want more of it
they wish for more of it
but they don't see it as a substantial thing
they see it in the river
they see ethical behavior in our pulsing
pulsing change of sense experience they see goodness and they see criminality to
but because they see it not it through the the consequences of their of their past action because they don't see it in a habitual way they're not hungry they're free while they're looking at it and because they're free they're all the more free to wish other beings would see
it that way and be free

so they do wish
for more ethical behavior
in the river and before they entered the river they wished for it on the road
and they learned to wish for it
and wish for it and not get distracted by the road
for example they learn to not be distracted by judgments of kindness and cruelty
there are judgments of goodness and evil
on the road and there's judgments of good and evil in the river
but in the river there's no addiction in relationship to the judgments
learn to practice with the appearance of good and evil on the road
by being risk by respecting the ethical
and not getting distracted by ethics and not ethics
they enter the river
and become three of craving
in the midst of these images
when we actually are on the beam of were actually in the moment in the midst of our addictions devoted to respect
for the path
of honoring what we feel is our responsibility
on the road at that mall and not distracted by judgments of whether we're doing it or not or whether anybody else is doing it out at that moment we are free
at that moment we don't have time to notice that we're not in the river
we don't have time to make the road we are free
but if we have time
to look at our freedom
check out whether it's true or not we've just slipped back into road making
which would be similar to rather than looking at your sense of responsibility for this precious life and respecting that and respecting that you start checking to whether you're fulfilling your responsibility
fulfilling your responsibility his freedom
however or and
freedom can is impossible the reality of freedom is impossible to know
if you couldn't if you could know it then it would be made into a road
if you could imagine it with your mind then you'd basically just make it into a road but the the road is not really freedom
but the reality of it cannot be known
and that we have to remember that we have that's the other part of the teacher so one part of the teaching is practice ethics with our addictions with our habits with this substantial ized life
wherein was weren't wearing we crave because we crave we to be free of making our life into iraq
practice ethics their how do you practice in i don't know i don't know how to practice him
but i want to
and i respect the practice
and sometimes i'm not at all distracted from it by whether i'm practicing it or not or whether your practice in it or not or what it is or not
no one knows the reality of ethics and no-one reale ignores the reality of freedom which is the practice of ethics
the practice of ethics is the practical part of freedom
the impossibility of knowing it's reality is the theoretical part of freedom
and the theory of reality is that you cannot know it it's free of our
road building abilities
theory of freedom meets the practice of freedom at freedom
the theory of peace mitch the practice of peace at peace and peace is fulfilling your sense of your obligation mama in a moment

hi often as
ask in his classes you know like last time i think i asked is there a wish you know do you have a wish a great wish
i'm an aspiration
why should it didn't know i'm asking slightly different question sort of masking do you have a sense
you know in your mind you have a sense of responsibility
the ever sense of what you are obliged to how your a by obliged to live
are you obliged to live in a certain way in the midst of addictions
and are you obliged to become free of them
you feel that
where do you feel some other obligation and some other responsibility i'm saying
let's start with what you feel is your responsibility in this life wherever you are if you're on the road where most people are what responsibility do you feel if you're in the river with the enlightened beings what responsibility do you feel they feel responsible to those who live in the river and can stay
hand it
they feel responsible they're responsible just to keep being in in the river and keep inviting people to practice and join them in the river that's their responsibility which they're working on
people who have not yet become free of their habits than what i'm asking them past
what sense of responsibility can you find in your mind and your heart
and the proposal is that human beings do have such a thing in their mind in their consciousness they do have a sense
and once they find that sense
or even before they find the sense let's say you found it then you have opinions about whether that sense is being met
you have opinions you have it appears as though you're doing it or not doing it
but the actual practice is not to get involved in those appearances even though day there
but to respect the practice to respect the feeling of responsibility to take care of that regardless of what you think's going on and you do think things are going on in their midst of think in the midst of thinking that something's going on
do you are you in touch are you taking care of your responsibility that you feel your work that you feel
did i say are you
take it back
do you want to
and also do you believe that that's freedom
i'm telling you it's freedom
and then i'm also saying by the way it's impossible to know the reality this freedom which i said this practices
in other words
all phenomenon insubstantial including freedom
it isn't like the best things are substantial
that's not what's best to bottom
what's best a bottom is it there there are freedom which is really really free it's free of anybody being able to get a hold of it even buddha's can't get ahold of freedom and they're the ones who teach them
and they also teach people
to take care of their sense of responsibility which is
can add a is ethics
but he sought this
feel responsible for the welfare of all beings that's their aspiration they have that aspiration they have the wish
to help all beings
in the best possible way that's their aspiration therefore they feel responsible to that and they don't know what that is
and they don't know who it is they're helping or who it is they want to help and even though they don't know who they want to help they still want to help those people that they don't know who they are
or what they are
they don't hold that against them
you know but why know who you are so i'm gonna find somebody else to help why do know
and they do know somebody they say okay i know that person this is my problem
can i accept that that i that i know this person other words i'm on the road again
and when i know somebody i'm hungry
i'm hungry for
at person who not somebody on the road there i'm hundred for the river of that person
even though i really like some people i know
when i know them i'm hungry because when i know them that's the embodiment waste of my story about them
so i accept if i'm then i'm on the road and i'm you know i've slipped away from hyped i risen above the river now i'm building a road again but as a practice then to and i can kind of remember
that practice those who are in the river can remember it those who then leave the river and enter the road that everybody can remember the practice it's possible
for road dwellers to remember and river dwellers to remember
and if we are road dwellers which we certainly sometimes are
right we see birth and death and we kind of believe it were habituated to it right so that that time or roadrailer
we see people we know we know them and we know what they're like can run north of whether they're good or bad
that's the road
i accept i'm on the road
okay what's my practice my practice is not to be judging people good and bad practices not to know people that's my habit
i practices to be kind to my habit
the practice ethics with my habit that's my practice and was awesome my risk my practice is to fulfill my responsibility which is to be kind to the road and all the people who dwell on the road
and everybody does dwelling on the road
when i look at them if i'm on the road they look like the road to
the road goes through birth and death and everybody on the road goes through birth and death and everybody on the road and the road everything deserves
everybody deserves freedom
and i don't know what it is and it's impossible to know what it is even buddha's don't know the reality of it which is why it really as good and really works
so again on the road the first ethical training is don't get distracted from remember safe
that you feel a responsibility in this precious life if you for if you found it then don't be distracted by it if you if you haven't found it yet
you need to find something from which you're not distracted so you can practice restraint of a distraction
in order to practice ethics the first one is to to restrained getting distracted from what your responsibility so it kind of need to find out if it if you feel some
the first aspect of ethics is to not get distracted from what you feel your obligation in this wonderful life is
life on the road and life in the river what responsibility of there it's the same responsibility in both places
but do you feel it
do you feel obligated
in some way wherever you are
in the midst of
no opinions or good and bad opinions do you feel some do you feel that and if you feel it
then i would say to you the way to become free and the way to find peace is to respect that
respecting that is the practice
of freedom and peace
so i've kind of i started the same thing over and over several times so probably you have you have some pretty good idea of what i said
and some feeling for it and so each of our our own job is to look at our heart look at our mind and see what
find that actually find that ethical consciousness find that mind with feels some obligation in this world some responsibility
and then consider whether you wish to take care of it and respect it
and the night and then if you can find it them i'm going and if i can find mind if i find mine and than i think it would make sense for me i think to help you find and take care of yours if i find mine than taking care of mine is to help me not to
get distracted from it and to help you not to get distracted from yours if you found it and if you haven't found it i think my responsibility is to have encouraged you find it
so you can do the practices which are which will bring you freedom and peace
and make you a helper of all beings
cause they need to learn this to
so if you wish to offer any
yes i thought the river
the en permanence and change how can you say the change in the river
beyond permanency fall like part
beyond permanent the on permanent change
an idea of the role changes an idea of the road yes right
yet you seem to say the change in the road
well it's like a river
it's not really i i i i'm sorry it's like a river
ana river seems to change so it seems to change
but the reality of the change cannot be grasped but it does seem to change
and let's say so
it's beyond anybody's idea of change but it's like a river it does seem to flow
our life does seem to flow there seems to be a flow
in the non habitual way of being there when there's not birth and death when there's no beginning or end of the flow there seems to be a flow
one person says what's like a river and like a serene lake
in the person said the mind
it's actually still it's still it's not really moving exactly is still in it's flowing are still in is changing
it's like a still in its dylan and still it's a stillness that's not fixed
so it's it's it's not my idea of change
it's like a river
not really a river
so we're using for maybe maybe we're on the road using images to help us on the road to realize what the roads based on and to help us understand why we're hungry
you're welcome thank you for it the question yes beer

the woman we left

what is it
we did
they wouldn't have to
then kind of the
say a i live a pretty yeah and i would go with nervous and i managed to say to her i mean they liked doing they kept me over and over again and it turned out
them into worried and she said well don't worry you know if the river of life you it'll take you with the doesn't want you will be well and it was almost like
have you ever have a life
he on the other thing is a very pragmatic thing and i feel like i love
freedom because
i have a dining about something
we were visiting the smell of fantasy has no family and he's very very sick and you have to go in the gloves and account because he has the septic inspection and
one of the people visiting him
and then i got sick

and i got a parallel and i thought well can pick up to the hospital
anymore and he's expecting me to come on the anniversary
currently know like and i don't know
due to the for
yeah i i feel
hardly like to do this

so i
you feel that tourists that you're obligated to go to the hospital
not exactly opposite
yeah he has no family
that you

i feel it's something i've wanted to make sure you
but i'm also afraid to go
i'm sorry he said you should do it that's like an obligation right
you feel
what it's more than i
maybe it's the man that point when the word obligation countertop
you might not wanna do you
i feel it
i'm not i understand it though if we use the word obligation
it may sound like something you don't want to do
okay i understand i understand that that word obligation might we might associate that was something you don't want to do
okay i got that smart but i'm i'm not telling you that your are obligated i asked you for felt it
and if you don't feel it than say no i don't
i thought you did so you feel obligation now now yeah yeah that feeling of all biggest sense of obligation and you can say
and you say and i associate that was something that i feel obligated to do that i don't want to do you can say that to that's not that's alongside of the obligation is an association with maybe something i don't want to do but
even if you didn't have that feeling of not wanting to do it you could sometimes feel an obligation that he didn't associate with that
he had this feeling of obligation what i'm saying is the practices to respect that sense of obligation
that's practice i'm talking about
i'm not tell you
that the practices to go to the hospital or not to go to the hospital you will probably go or not go
you know and i might see or hear that you went or didn't go
but i'm not really so concerned about whether you go or not actually
i'm concerned whether you're respecting this particular sense of obligation whether you're taking care of it whether you're getting distracted from it
you know you could get distract from by thinking what should i go or not go
that can be another obligation you feel you might feel like i feel obligated to think about whether i should go or not
you might feel that i myself do not feel an obligation to think about whether you should go or not i don't feel that but i do feel an obligation to talk to you about taking care of your obligation your sense of obligation to respect it
to keep it in mind to care for it because this is the precious thing is that you feel some obligation to beings
with or without association that you have to do it or you should do it even i don't want to or even association with this is about something you don't want to do some obligations you feel you're perfectly happy about but you know and other things you don't feel an obligation about and you don't
and even they don't feel obligation you still wouldn't want to do it
i don't feel obligated do that thing which i don't want to do
that's possible right i do feel an obligation of this thing which i do want to do
i feel an obligation to this thing which i don't want to do but i don't want to do when i do want to do or not respecting the obligation those are just opinions and preferences and so on
that's not the practice those are just things you can't control you can't control them they just come up and go away the road builders
i'm talking about respected
the road builders the your opinions and your your opinions and views of what's going on it's building roads
roger built by those kinds of attitudes and those kinds of stories but your respect for to your sense of obligation that's the practice on pointing to
that may lead that may that may sponsor
it now sponsored but that may be there when you go to the hospital or not
but also some people
go to the hospital and get distracted from this
so they go to the hospital and
they dismiss this build more roads
which you know and there's good and bad roads is the rough roads and but no matter what road you build you just building more habit

you go to the hospital
because you think people will like you better for going are you go to the hospital because you feel you will you'll be free of guilt of not going to the hospital
you're not going to hospital out of just respecting your obligation
you're going there for some other reason other than you respect taking care of your of your obligation your sense of obligation your responsibility
but you can also feel responsible to go to the hospital and not be able to go to the hospital because
but the road doesn't let you go
the hospital closed you break your leg
but you actually we're we're respecting your obligation and we're happy to do anything in accord with respecting it
which might be going to the hospital and visiting the person that might be perfectly in accord with that
but also not visiting him might be in accord with that but if you forget it
when you forget it when you get into you get into
appearances like i went to the hospital i didn't i'm a good person and a bad person that person is not worthy bit of my visit this you know get into that kind of stuff resident i respect
my obligation to care for all beings
or whatever you feel

that's right
what does what does hunger stand for
it stands for on
craving which causes more road building which causes more craving which causes more road-building which causes and other words suffering
the road stands for a for the you know the world that we've constructed here like it stands for this room and all the people in it
and now this is this road is situation were living with is a result of our storytelling
and were habituated to this this
storytelling means that we dream up you know for example i have an image of you and i think and i say that you and you know i believe it
the river stands for i don't know who you are
and i don't know who you are and i can tolerate that
when i'm when i'm in the river and yeah i'm and i'm free and i and i'm and i'm not craving you to be good or bad or what i think you are not what i think you are i don't believe
that you are something that i can dream up my fact are not dreaming you up i don't know what you are
the river his life
where you're not making it into something you can grasp and you are not hungry you're sensing things you're here you're feeling pain and pleasure
but you're not craving you're not desiring more pain or more pleasure or less pain or less pleasure you just sensing you're you're living yours you're a sentient being without craving
the you are you are accepting reality is he as it is yeah you're accepting reality as it is
don't know you're accepting reality means you accept that you do not know that reality that's part of accepting it
except that
that's life in the river
and that's a freedom from well pretty from craving which leads to building roads which leads to craving and suffering
and may you continue to be new here
hey that's life in the river
who are these people
who are you man their woman there who are you
i'm calling on you
i don't know who are you



am i being clear
when i just heard
i just heard a road
i just heard a road
yeah and the road i heard was
i'm going to fulfill an obligation and then i heard
road which was i don't want to fulfill the obligation and then i heard a question a road question what's going on
i heard a road
at for me the roads
and so yes so
what to do about it read and and so what this isn't what i'm doing with it i'm talking to you and i'm trying while i talk to you do not get distracted
from my sense of obligation
from my sense of responsibility
and and i might feel responsible to say to you that the idea that this
obligations going to be satisfied is just that it's an idea which you're telling me i think that you have some experience like that have some of such an idea
and then you also said a struggle as unresolved and i'm saying to you and me that to think that that obligations will be fulfilled
and to think that i don't want to and to be involved in that stuff is a struggle and that that that struggle will not be resolved
i pay my respects
to my sense of obligation and don't get distracted about whether i whether it's going to be resolved with it's going to be fulfilled the obligation where does not gonna be fulfilled with i want to or don't want to
wanting to not wanting to opinions about success and failure
hey those are things on the road which can easily distract me from my job my job is not to think those thoughts
but i do think those thoughts
my responsibility is not to think such thoughts but i do i am responsible for them but my responsibility for them is to not get distracted by them

no no not ignore them because you just told me bottom and my responsibility is not to ignore the story you told me just now
and i know know my responsibilities to encourage you not to ignore them
i'm saying don't get distracted by them
but it's a struggle not to get distracted by them it's a struggle when you think oh should i take care of this person or not
oh i wanna take care in this person oh i don't want to take her this person
oh i should take her this person those thoughts
relating to them and hit and and welcoming them being generous towards the not ignoring giving them my generous attention
i'm not getting distracted from my responsibility that's a struggle which will be resolved but if i get distracted
it won't be resolved
that you actually get into whether you're gonna do it or not

no it takes you away from your respect and care for your obligation
you gotta be on this beam all the time of your responsibility your responsibility is what you get to stay what it is and then once you hit when she had that clear than you can have a struggle which will lead to resolution
but if you have a sense of responsibility and you'd get distracted from it and start thinking about whether you should fulfill your responsibility or not that's not your responsibility is not to think about whether you're going to be successful or not

okay so that's what i'm this this confidence you have actually always say okay fine have that confidence setting
that's the confident that you're going absolutely for sure going to be a buddha
no question about it you're going to be buddha
you're venturing a lock into your responsibility and never get distracted yeah for sure k fine now it just what happens it is other thing there which is saying i don't want to do it that's that's that is gonna be something you're going to struggle with
that's the road
that's example of the road i am i don't want to do it gay
i will line up with my read i will line up with my sense of responsibility for sure completely someday i will gay there's is that that's a kind of confidence thing i want to is another confidence thing i want to line up with it
but i don't want to do this and i do want to do that those are things which can distract me from it and if i get into those and take care of those who don't take care of those in that judgment process
from my confidence that i will line up with it and then i want to wind up with it and i'm respect that wish i respect my integrity has a has a potential buddha

would you call it again this
well it's it's the result of resistance
it's a result of resistance and if you start looking at it and forget your obligation than you're resisting your obligation if you get distracted by these things you are resisting the practice of not being distracted
the all these all these
yeah on the road is the results i'll pass distractions

one no temptation would be i am i am actually respecting my i'm respecting my responsibility and here's an opportunity to get distracted and i'm tempted to get distracted but i'm not there yet i'm i'm just tempted i'm actually says i'm still i'm still on the beam here
but i see a possibility of going away from the be but i'm not there yet when you actually go over there is not temptation anymore you have transgressed you fell off
transgression is yeah transit
transgression is distraction distraction transgression distraction from what distraction from your ethical responsibility whatever it whatever you feel it to be

the road means everything you see all day long pretty much
you see stuff that starts and ends
k that's not that's not and what in to live in the world that has birth and death
is based on a world that doesn't have birth and death
and because we live in the world has birth and death which is based on a world that doesn't were craving all the time and if we could stand the world of the life actually free of birth and death could stand it than we wouldn't be creating this world anymore
and we wouldn't be craving and we wouldn't suffer but we have not been able to stand the world and radical change and radical life
so we made a road and and were hungry

i have synonyms for it and it's and i've used him in past classes sit the synonym for road is karmic consciousness
synonym for road is the consequences of all your past karma the world the world is a synonym for the road but i'm just saying the world is like is hard thing that you're putting on top of something that's not a world we have a life which isn't a world
it's not a world is a life but we can't stand our life because you are
inclined to try to make our life into something we can grasp and we were successful
i should say by wishing to make it into something that we can grasp for successful ones we can grasp it than were hungry
through our life that can't be addressed and we want to go back to our life that can't be dressed
yes but i thought the road image in some ways is has some advantage over comic consciousness
which is covering
our actual life
the road is is the embodiment of our karmic consciousness which is going on right now and our comic consciousness is aware of the the results of our cosmic consciousness or comic consciousness is operating and his living inside it
a shell or on top of a road which is results of kind of consciousness and that's blocking
access to what we're yearning for
i'll a life a full life
and at peace even though it's very alive
you're welcome
hi i it's getting late
so maybe you could just ask your question ask for question
can we do ask your question then
ask your question
yeah be spoken of
as an obligation
i think it's more sense of i think it's more sense of obligation if you take care and respect your sense of obligation you will become free
and at peace
we don't bicker and also your obligation and the practice of taking care of it and your freedom are closely related
there's an actual obligation the actual of the actual obligation is
well it's something which is impossible to know
yes not not a question

yeah so maybe he was really clear about his responsibility
but even if you're not clear about your responsibility
you can respect you can respect it in it's unclear form
respecting it
even if it's unclear if the practice
and if if you're clear about it then respect the clear
the clearer sense of responsibility
if you can't find your responsibility
and i would i'm suggesting let's let's try to find it because we need that because that's what we need to respect that's the core of our ethical life at the core of us finding peace and
the superficial and profound change of life
and i'd like to go deeper into
moments of consciousness with you next time and next