The Mind of Enlightenment 

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i see quite a few people that weren't her last week i wondered if people who weren't her last week
we're able to listen to the recording
did you did with recording posted
not yet
well maybe can listen to it soon
so the course description is too
practice concentration
bodhicitta concentration on
the mind or the thought of enlightenment
and last week i talked about a range of possible meanings or aspects are layers of this term body get done
but simply put
you could talk about two kinds of bridget the one which is basically
a conventional boy checked
and another which is ultimate bodhicitta
or conventional
thought of enlightenment and the ultimate thought of enlightenment
the conventional thought of enlightenment
is actually like thinking in ordinary relative sense
and i'm thinking and a kind of resolute way
i really sincere
resolution to realize buddhahood
for the welfare of all living beings
and then again i brought up many dimensions of that
which moved towards the ultimate bodhicitta which is
ah enlightenment itself
and that
so i started last week my continue this week with concentrating are focusing
on conventional bodhicitta
a kind of mine of enlightenment that thinking can
that's expressed through thinking and through our intention and resolution
and wow
while while we're sitting i
i said
regarding all suffering beings it is possible to think
they are myself
it's possible i think each one is myself
and the sum total of them all of them
our myself
this kind of ah yeah this kind of
a conventional body cheat days is the body chapter in senses the body checked it out look touch bar a bodhisattva
who hasn't heard about look touched touch bar body soccer before please raise your hand
so i've lucky test our bodies bodhisattva phase in chinese got one in japanese conan
ah it's the body sought for of great compassion
in not
marianna tradition
and in the lotus sutra there's a chapter on have a low-key test far and they actually call off lucky touch bar
sometimes they translate all the look at as far as regarding of the cries of the world
the one who regards or contemplates
the cries of the world and other words contemplates the entire
world of suffering bags
listens to their cries looks at their suffering regards it as the name of that bodhisattva
and it says at the end of the chapter
that with eyes of compassion
this body sought from regards all the ocean all living beings
it doesn't say this body sought for regards all living beings
and thanks
they are myself
doesn't say that in the sutra
but bodies of like just it does regard
all living beings all suffering beings as herself she dies
that's the way she thinks
she doesn't think she's anything in addition
to all living beings
we can say well isn't isn't there something is either the addition of the regarding of all living beings actually you could add that if you want
the rather get cash bar is all living beings and is the regarding of all living beings but really the way all living beings are included the regarding of all living beings
thirty there
so great compassion actually isn't it something in addition to the entire
assembly of suffering banks
you got entire assembly of supreme beings you have great compassion threat there
it's not in addition of a good touch bar
it is represents that compassion which embraces all suffering bags and i think
have a look at test for our thanks
they are myself
they are my life
so in this training focusing on this conventional boy chapter yeah we can train ourselves
two
take the word i
and apply it
the assembly of all suffering beings
and think apply to them
i i i i i i i applied to them and think they are myself
and if we identify
ah all living beings in this way
and the mind becomes just use expression habituated to this way of thinking about all living beings

he getting that he obliged to do all the time and we can we look at somebody you think
this is myself she's myself he's myself there myself can really get into that then what happens is that am
what's predicted to happen is that when somebody shows up
you'll think you'll you'll see them as yourself so you train yourself to think of them yourself and as you get really accustomed to this and this becomes your orientation
when you see people
you think you're meeting yourself
so you see somebody think i
i i i
prefer on
that's a prediction that comes through trade for to focusing on conventional bridget to that you
the i will arise
in quotation marks the i will arise
when when when federal things arise and the result of this will be that dumb
you'll care for them
in with the same energy and and and devotion that you care for yourself
you're not good at caring for yourself you should get going to carry yourself for yourself so that you care for them while too
but some people even if they're not skillful at caring for themselves they do try to care for themselves but they don't try to care for some other people some other beings
so part of this is to this this meditation is following on getting good at taking care of yourself so this is the concentration practice for bodhisattvas following all kinds in a practicing giving practicing ethical discipline practicing patience pract
listening enthusiasm for practicing wholesome dharmas now after learning how to take care yourself
now you train yourself
to see others as yourself in all a skillful ways of caring for yourself you will wish to offer to them
in learning to act
for the welfare of living beings
in learning to live for the welfare of living beings
i am learning to see
and care for all living beings
has myself
yeah not so much like care for them as i would care for myself but care for them as myself how to take your him how do i take it myself by taking care of others that's i take care of myself
to learn to see them and care for them as myself
in learning
the care for beings this is what i'm learning
course there's other things you learn in caring for beings like you learn to listen to them he learned to be generous to them he learned to be patient with them that's not all applies to but
to make this work pure
we also learn
to see them as ourself
which is similar to if i may add
seeing and caring or every and all living beings as gifts
seeing everybody is a gift is similar to see everybody as yourself
saying that everybody that comes gives you life everybody you meet gives your life everybody everybody that you meet
give you your life
as as an ancestor dogan says when all things come forth
and confirm the self that's awakening
when you act on and witness the self
in the advent of all beings that's enlightenment so we train ourselves to see whatever's coming
whenever we meet whoever we meet particularly living beings
particularly humans actually because some people are pretty good with dogs
they see a dog the thing all at me
have some people think well that's my dog but actually learned a lot of people who really love dogs and of that me
me
the cat they think that's me when they see a cow and at me when the human they say no way
that human is not me
so we know how to do that we learn that now it's time to learn a new trick
which is every being animal every animal every plant and especially the hard ones every human especially the humans who are nasty
they are myself
how in in this lynn
th coming from this ancestor dogan
we have the suggestion that the criterion the standard the touchdown the pattern model
the norm of the school
is the concentration or the samadi from the south
and that means it's the concentration
on the self
that is all beings
concentration on the self which is confirmed by everybody
what's concentration everybody confirming the self it's a concentration on everybody fulfilling this self
the samadi of the self as all beings is the standard of the
the school coming down through dogan
the focus on they are myself
if the criterion of this school of meditation
to sit up right in the concentrated awareness of they are myself
is the true path of enlightenment in the soto and school according to certain ancestors
ha this is the same as to say the criterion of this is to train in concentrating on conventional bodhicitta an ultimate body chapter
so this is the chinese zen way of talking about it in the indian mahayana were talking about it
the chinese mahayana zen way an indian
my own away
so we had this ancestor who's the founder of the zen tradition in china called bodhidharma
who hasn't heard a buddy donald before raise your hand
hey buddy drama is the suppose founder of the zen school and china
and
he came from india he was an indian monk supposedly he came to china from india
and he met the emperor they say they had a talk and he left the emperor and he went to the northern part of china and sat at a place called the little forest and he faced a wall he said still facing a wall for nine
years
for iron years he sat there
and lived for the welfare of all beings and for nine years he sat there
thinking
all living beings i myself
when you sit and you think when you walk and you think she's myself she's myself he's myself she's myself all beings are myself when you think this you don't do that of course to get any reward
you do that to practice
the samadhi of the south you do that to say beings you don't expect a reward
you practice being yourself just be yourself for the welfare of all beings
you take care of the practice
what practice practice of being yourself for the welfare of all beings the practice of thinking
they are myself you do that practice
and you do not possess it you're devoted to it but you don't possess it
you care for every living being
without being possessive of every living being your care for
you care for the practice you care for living beings you care for yourself without being possessive of anything
how they are myself
she is myself he is myself and i don't own them
when you when we first are taken care of others
really wholeheartedly are almost wholeheartedly i shouldn't say first when we begin and continue to care for others as ourself if we're not completely whole hearted we will probably slip into possessing these precious beings who are caring for
so that's not the complete practice practicing bay practice will be when we care for living beings when we care for the practice without being possessive of it
hi i'm yeah so that so but i'm offer you for starters
tonight and
well one more thing one more big thing actually
which are going to more detail about later by just one and mentioned so i don't forget and that is that part of training and bodhicitta is also
to do ceremonies or rituals
ha to verbally and physically express
this
this resolution
one of the ceremonies is to sit and think
they are myself and to walk and think they are myself but also you could say it out loud
you can stay out loud
and you could put your hands together and you could look at somebody you say you are myself this is not a common ceremony
but
i think i'd recommend it
start by thinking it and then when you're ready
look the sentient being are sentient beings in their eyes and say you are myself
the ceremony is in then we usually do
is that we have as we have a bodhisattva precepts ceremony
and boys are the precept ceremony we we get bodhisattva precepts but and the precepts will give look like ethical precepts
looks like precepts are teachings for ethical discipline
like the ten gray precepts
are the ten major precepts a bodhisattvas are not killing not stealing not misusing sexuality not lying not intoxicating yourself actually it's pretty it actually is not to intoxicate not to sell in toxic
to others
i'm not slandering others extra not slandering now praising self with the expense of others not being possessive
of the sentient beings that you're taking care of
and the things you're taken care of not harboring ill will and not disparaging the triple treasure those are the ten major bodhisattva precepts so we give them
and then we also give the three refuges and three pure precepts
and people notice sometimes well this is a bodhisattva initiation ceremony how can we don't say the boy sought for vows
and we actually do we say them a lot and zen practice but we don't same in the ceremony
how do we do say in the ceremony now that you've received these precepts
you have become the basis for the arising of the body jetta
so the ceremony is like a formal initiation
a form of gift
to the board and nouns in the order knees ordinance or those who haven't are going towards ordination or nice are those who have been ordained it's a gift to them so that they will ritually ceremonially
be able to do the body checked to practice
in early buddhism the practitioners the disciples of buddha did not have the boy sought for vows they did not receive them in ceremonies they receive these ethical precepts
and so some the art there are bodhisattva initiation ceremonies where the bodhisattvas receive an express the bodhisattva vows to live to attain buddhahood for the welfare of all beings are our ceremony site that bring the zen school we kind of take the form of the earth
early buddhist and his ordination where you receive
teachings on ethical discipline and we use that form to become the basis for the body checked up and again with in the sand when we say now you now the boys now the jews have you know neither you've receive these precepts the bodhicitta will arise
in you
so i've said to you i'm telling you about this bodhicitta about this route sincere resolution to retain to realize buddhahood for the welfare of all beings but as i told you before not all dentists to is feel that in their heart
some do not say this say what i hear about this but i'm just understands and center to feel better or to become a better person from i'm here for me to become a better person well that's a whole something
i'm here to get
feeling better i'm here to get i'm here to receive the reward of being a better happier person that's why i'm practicing zen i'm actually practicing to gain something people say that and i'm actually to try to gain something for myself
i'm not into not gaining anything i heard about it and that's not where i'm at
and i said well you practicing the precept of not lying on as good
but when you're is when you receive the these precepts you be now the body checked will arise in you
is a rising in you it is arising in you
a night i take care of it
and then if you lose it
you have to do ceremony over or some other way behind the boy chipped again but in fact in a ceremony i think the boy took to his born
i in some cases not necessarily for the first time
so that was my brief time at which i can elaborate on later but i want to say that
tonight and then we had from
last week at the end of class
christiane has to question
would you please ask your question again

you're interested in exploring
connection between

did you hear a question in bodhicitta has arisen in you could you possibly be unskillful
the answer is yes
yes you can be unskillful
so in the bodhisattva precepts ceremony where you commit to these modes of skillfulness like this is ten major precepts can also be called can lead your wholesome paths are skillful pass the skillful path of not killing for samples
but before you receive the precept she also received the practice of confession and repentance
where you will practice that when you do not practice these wholesome pass
and not practice in them could be called unwholesome
where you can say when you do on a wholesome things or you don't do the wholesome things either way you will probably your confess and you will watch to see if you feel remorse and sorrow had not following through on these precepts and so you'll repent and then re re enter into the
practice so you can actually have an authentic wish to realize buddhahood for the welfare of all beings you know like that really was come almost completely filling your body and mind and for tremendous joy at feeling this wish to live like that
and then the next moment somebody's spits in your face and you don't say thank you
you know you don't feel
this is myself you feel more like this is somebody was not me who is not good at as not as good as me
books i bought violated a precept
so if the board is ship to have arisen it's good to receive the precepts because the precepts are one of the way to take care of it if the body said to have not arisen receiving the precepts is a can are conducive process to stimulate the birth of it but it can be born and you can lose it

you want you don't necessarily lose it everytime you slip
but you can lose it at the same time that you slept you could lose it
the same time you do have something on skillful you can lose some things are so in scuffle that you'll definitely lose it
no just now
so again last week i use these several examples one as when the body checked the first arises in
the mind into the cycle physicality of a living being it's like a candle
with a flame on it and a gentle breeze can blow it out
a gentle insult could blow it out
not to mention a harsh insult but even an insult
it's not that big a deal actually but yet even that could blow up the boy checked
so you have to take care of the body jetta with patients gotta have patience around it so that when it gets so when the living being who has bought two tickets insult
the flame doesn't get blown out maybe
and yet to be generous so every time somebody comes when the insulted come you welcome them and you're you're working before they arrive here comes myself he got myself why yeah disperse would think they're going to insult me that that insulting work on their face but this is me coming and they come out in a given the
insult and you're right in it was kind of like wichita is gonna be not exactly worse maybe you're better whatever they give it to you but because you are welcome in them it doesn't blow out the bodhicitta matter of fact
when they get insulted and you don't lose it cause you like continue to cultivated why you're being attacked
why you're being defamed think how how again not that good nice it's nice exactly good that they're the family use but it's good that you practice
developing richard to under those circumstances
so then it can get stronger and stronger so that again after a while when these
challenges come they just make it stronger
but beginning you might lose it by frequently and they have to go find it again
and now maybe next we can talk about the various kinds of things that help you find it but
next is tracey
you're going to offer example yes

no distinction

so right before

somebody wasn't insulting the houses is them

conventional
so i think of myself
community
completely not doing that
so busy thinking about
somebody
didn't even
he did what didn't what didn't occur to you to think of that person is myself
man
so you but during that time you were thinking that you were living for the welfare of all these are you didn't or good job but at that time you you weren't thinking about this person being yourself or that you are living for the welfare of this person
but as beginning an idiot
so yesterday so you were you weren't thinking the idiot is myself
smiling for myself as i could imagine
so now you can help now you're confessing and i enter it is a repentance happening
did you feel sorrow now
that's so
that the crime in thinking oh i
it's a terrible but about tried now okay as appropriate
to confess and feel sorrow about our pride that's
that's part of the practice
get up the phone and go to my class because i'm such a cool
when to save hopkins you idiot
that was interested in the answer
not at the money
no
wanted to reason it it will it will it'll be more opportunities for it are rising but it does get lost
people who had been greatly inspired to realize the highest compassion and wisdom for the welfare beings they have gotten distracted and last
last that resolution
can hardly remember what they even lost
but they find it again
and then they start cultivating and again
maybe more carefully than the first time maybe the first time in arises you might not even
i mean some people i think seems like it arises in them but they don't have anybody around them to tell them how to take care of it
so then i lose it and nobody's telling him that that's normal to lose it so they they feel really terrible but they don't know how to take care of it could arise again
again i i did mention this last time as a basic proposal is that you do not make voyage to rise by yourself by your own power you don't just sit there they'll get but it just let's have come on
you may think that but that's not really not what gave you the ability to think that
the body checked arises
in the communion between living being suffering beings and the borders in that communion this you can arise
and has arisen and after the reason it has been lost and that's risen again in further communion
and been cared for so we didn't we need instructions of how to care for it so
besides the other near the instructions of giving precepts
patients now and concentrate how enthusiasm this in this class
i'm emphasizing
focusing on the body checked itself
i'm either or the other stuff as a toxin last class til available
so if you want the last class we focused on the on the first for what he sought for trainings
about how to take care of the body chapter this one we're focusing on the fifth practice concentration
and then
honda relative by jetta and concentration on the altar boy took the moves into wisdom
yes

ha
in which you are
you
because your years
public situation
all that
oh that
when you fell over when you feel overwhelmed of well
the practices to continue what you are you just said continue it
and if you keeping of of being overwhelmed so far i haven't heard the problem of the being overwhelmed
the project
he wanted
well then you stop the practice wait
what you know them
yeah so well but when you were describing the practice to me you said will in and you said it's overwhelming that sauna find me i didn't it i didn't see any problem there then you said but then i stopped during the practice nice you there's a problem
when you when you start regarding everybody as yourself and you feel overwhelmed so far so good overwhelmed is part of it
that's not that's that that goes with the territory
but then we start resisting and saying well actually this is not such a good idea i don't want to do this anymore now you're not doing the practice
so if you want to know about how to protect from stopping the practice than you do the previous practices like be patient and generous and ethics and enthusiasm we have to do those in order to when you feel overwhelmed stand your seat
but being overwhelmed is not a bad sign
it is overwhelming
two
i mean i am overwhelmed when when all there is as everybody else
then i'm overwhelmed now if i don't like that than i should grow practice patience with not liking it before i actually decide to change my story and switch from
they are myself to they are not myself and that's really good and i don't ever want to think about again
so anyway what you described originally as of that's fine don't you talk about resisting it well that's not find now we lost it
so how to protect is that when you feel like you're doing is practice you still have to do these other practices which support the concentration
you have to be flexible and relaxed an ethical and joyful
the has to be some joy in this overwhelmed
and energy
know for this practice like i
there are myself and i feel joyful thinking about this this is like a wonderful thing to think i'm so happy that i'm i'm being supported to think this way about my relationship with all sentient beings
if i lose this joy i won't be able to continue this heroic path which can be overwhelming
if i'm joyful i i didn't go with the overwhelm if i'm feel overwhelmed
but it's not just overwhelmed is
the overwhelm his me this is myself this on well
and i'm joyful and patient
and i'm not possessive like an not proud that i can do this practice and possesses practice and i i welcome the practice i welcome the sentient beings and i welcome overwhelm and it goes over one goes away i let it go away and just be kind of like mild
total devotion diabetes
huh tell me your name again
stephen
this

hi elizabeth
me

well
hi there
if the body shifter is the resolution to live
for the to live to realize the buddha's skill to help people and if you're not thinking of that what are you thinking about
if you're not taking something like that you'd lost it
if you're thinking is not either literally that kind of thinking or supporting it you've lost it you're doing something else so developing boy chipped need major actually thinking of our body you're thinking about this both enlightenment you're thinking about the welfare of people
now not all the time just now and if now i'm not thinking of the welfare of others i'm a little bit distracted from thinking about the welfare of others
and not just the human welfare of others but that i want to live for that and i want to get really skillful to facilitate that welfare to think about that to remember he is myself when i forget that he is myself i'm somewhat distracted
from body them
now by switch into
you know something even more than on skillful than just forgetting
like and ketosis up here myself or the or say i do not want to live for his welfare something like that is pretty much blown the body chapter
out of the part of my body mind for the moment so i've kind of lost it
thinking about
harming others is not if not more egypt up
wishing people hill is not bodhicitta
however if there's a thought of wish somebody would ill in myself or and others if i'm practicing boy chipped i think that is myself
you know that your will is myself non-practicing boy egypt again but if it just ill will without any attending compassion and intention of this boy egypt and watch it to has been lost it's not really functioning
but once we were right there attending to it without it without being possessive of it
naughty boy just really functioning
so when is not functioning it's not really it doesn't really exist been lost
that's why we have to practice when come when the karmic waves come in and blow our minds into it on a comically on skillful mode
it is no gift is no body no compassion for that brigitta has it's not it's not existing at that moment
that that's what the understory and next model we can say
what's this is unskillful and i'm going to now re-establish my communication links with the buddha's i'm going to confess this in the presence of the buddha's to re re initiate re enter my relationship with the buddhas and maybe in that in that reactivated relationship
does but egypt will rise again and it will
but not gonna rise from forgetting all this stuff and entering an unwholesome paths it doesn't doesn't arise that way and my frantic can be lost
are you can say isn't it our true nature
bodhicitta represents the thing about us that can turn this on wholesomeness around we do have that capacity so in that sense we don't lose body subject
well you can say it their true nature but it's but it's not really our true nature than then you say it's not really our true nature to be scope on skillful and cruel
ha yeah so what about that
so that's part of we're dealing here is that that's not body chapter but that's but that's part of it goes along with the bullshit
and that practice not can undermine the body chip
it interferes with its realization
yes and yes
yes elena

guilt and remorse you can be how you can be guilty without remorse
like if if you if you're cruel the someone you're guilty of you're guilty of the cruelty
right so guilt would have two meanings one is you are guilty of doing something on unskillful the other is you feel maybe yes i am guilty i did that
i was cruel to sign so
but i don't regret it i don't go any pain about it
remorse means that literally etymologically
three mangia
taste again
tastes the nastiness of cruelty again
but just as a yeah i was cruel
then you're kind of admitting your guilt
but to taste it again ah yuk
i don't like to be crew that's remorse
and that's moving into repentance is that we do not want it to something about us that doesn't want to be cruel and that is how we recover from cruelty and go back to the
our compassion about a guilt doesn't necessarily mean remorse
for just guilt itself is not necessarily feeling guilt of course is not guilt in the sense that you're guilty of the thing that doesn't do any good really particularly i don't know maybe it does and finn admitting it is honest so then you're not guilty of lying anyway
but the thing that really turns it around us to feel sorrow and despair and there's a there's a wide range of sorrow i would say but there's a certain band of sorrow that reforms us and reactivate or wished to act virtuously that's the
repentance part
which is not necessarily there in people who are guilty and admit they're guilty
he sort of have to admit your guilt though in our practice remorse
tighter repents on skillfulness that you don't admit you did
yes lorie

actually worked

says

think of everybody
one way talk about
yeah that's part of it moved another part of it is realize that he whether you're thinking about yourself or others there's no basis for either one of those on can does conventional designations

why

it could it could a blur the confusion by his new idea
yeah maybe it's possible
but what i'm suggesting to you is that
but this meditation
when it leads to you actually seeing yourself
when others appear that that will make it easier for you to be devoted to them
and then that and that will help you clarify the confusion
that devotion which is not coming from mom
now which is coming from this new vision
but there there are other can there are other levels of confusion to be clarified along this path of caring for others
as yourself rather than caring for others as others caring for others at others is pretty good as we allow people do it but the body chipped away is to care for others as yourself
if you care for others as others your care may be impure and won't work it won't work so well to move you towards enlightenment
we want to purify our devotion to others so we have this basic thing i wish to care for others
i wish to attain buddhahood so i can care for others i got that part but that could be impure and we're trying to prepare ourselves for this meditation by other practices giving ethical study in patients but still this practice
which you're saying could perhaps still allow some confusion
i agree
no and i think it if there's some confusion it doesn't instantly eliminate the confusion i'm saying he will tend to purify this basic intention if you've got this intention
this is a meditation this is the this is the first step is more steps but this is the first day
in purifying the wish to live for the welfare of others
i'm laura is bringing up qantas still be some confusion in there
and that an end the and
that's why we do this that's why i'm suggesting this focus this concentration is because
at the beginning of practicing giving
ethical study patients and enthusiasm at the beginning of that you might have already had the bodhicitta
and you doing these practices to protect it now we're moving into a practice where we're going to remove the afflictions that are still present even though you've been practicing body kit for some time
to remove the afflictions and then they finally even remove any a tendency towards the afflictions
which can coexist with disappointed
and so you're bringing up i think some of the the affliction of confusion
that has been there the whole time
and now

well again they're focused on the other but did they see the other as themselves if not just other other other it's other as me this is me as different from just oh i'm only i'm here to take her you i'm here to take her you and your ticker yeah that's
good but you on me
ha see i don't know where that sakhalin must try it ron marianne viera and nancy
run

meditating on what
just think it
to think it
thank you
well actually they think of all sentient beings and think they are myself
think think of the teaching that whatever comes his yourself but make a simple just just focus on the thought was thinking focus i'm thinking that all others or myself all others are my true self that's all right as
yeah i really am just think about that until you're kind of that your orientation
that that you grew up to a are all day long
and then noted and then tell me what happens
tell me what kind of like that is
tried this week tired all week all day long triumph
i will do
marianne

well by the time you by the time they get to this practice that we're trying in this class of focusing on of concentrating on bodhicitta now we're doing the conventional voyager two
you're supposed to have already been practicing patience with your own pain
and the pain of anybody who care about so you already you're already been doing this practice of patience that's part of what gives you the energy to do concentration because when we have pain and we don't pay attention to it we are we are subconsciously resisting and usually
and on gripped by various addictions which distract our energy when you learn to be patient with your pain you start giving up some of your resistance to it that releases a lot of energy which is unavailable for to do to continue to practice patience in the other virtues
but get you ready for concentration
if you notice you're not good at practicing patience with your own pain please practice patients with your own pain that will get you ready
when you start to notice other people or yourself to see the their pain is kind of like european
and if it's too much
when it was too much me too much me just you you that resisting it
can you gotta go back and practice generosity ethics and patients again to get your energy up to do this really difficult thing of
facing the suffering of others now which you weren't doing before but now the now that you're exposed you're being exposed to their suffering
so we have all kinds of strange stories about
advanced practitioners just you know buckling over at the sight of other people's pain
you know but be joyfully back over because they're happy that they're joyful that the pain of those they love hurts them they love that that that's it that's a great joy they wouldn't feel right if the pain of those they love didn't touch them
there must be separated from them if the other people's suffering doesn't reach them
yeah
well
you know confused about
and cargo
in my mind to keep it simple
mistake are taking care of other people away you will take care of yourself that to me that you would take care of yourself still boy and then kind of assuming that yeah again
this is background practices of caring for yourself is leading up to this developing this concentration on body chip to yes
and then when it isn't assuming that your perfect that does at the ways of taking care of yourself it it isn't assuming that your perfect it at had caring for yourself it just means that you have considerable skill because if you don't have considerable skill you don't have enough energy to do this practice
so i'm telling you this practice you might feel like i don't have the energy to do this practice well
last the last class i talked about how to develop energy
how develop enthusiasm
one of the way you developed two years of the main thing that causes gives rise to enthusiasm is aspiration that you are intensely interested in doing these practices
and one of things and the main thing that i should say one of these it's the main thing that gives rise to enthusiasm to do this practice that we're talking about this class the main reason to have judaism is because you really are interested in practicing it you think they would really good to not only how body checked the much focus on it and pure
refine and the main thing that gives rise to the aspiration is to review comic cause and effect to notice how it isn't so good
to think get your know to believe that your separate from other people
and so on so to do this practice does assume some skill and take care yourself so if you don't you like your skills are taking care of yourself reviewed last class
and do those practices to warm up to this practice
but it doesn't assume that you're protected of previous practices because you can't have perfected him until you do this practice because this practice is how you perfect body chapter which is used which is the thing you're taking care of by the previous practices
yeah
i have to
i'm taking here
people
they are
there are other key
well
i'm thinking maybe it be better
the

would it be that sounds good so far for you just said sounds fine and in and in this class i'm talking about why you're talking to them
think that the person you're talking to yourself why you tell the person who you think as yourself
that you don't feel that given enough energy to take care of them keep thinking that they say why don't have the energy to keep thinking now i say well you know the energy to keep thinking that than you can't do the practice
but it's possible to be thinking the person i'm talking to his myself and i'm going to tell her now that i don't have the energy to do blah de blah with her
but i'm still practicing giving with her while i give her the gift of telling her i can't give her something else i can give it the gift however telling her that i can't give her the the other thing
i'll give you the gift thing i need to rest
and i have the energy to give you that gift and be patient with myself for not being able to give you more and not you know and practice ethics at the same time i'm doing pretty good here
and
on top of that focus on body checked
so while i'm failing to give you what i would like to give you or what you're asking me for
i give you the i do give you the gift of telling you that i'm failing at that and i'm simultaneously meditating on the mind of enlightenment which is
she is myself
she is myself this person who i am telling i can't give her this thing i'm talking to somebody who is myself
when you asked me a question about this
you're thinking he is myself
he is myself when i'm talking to you about this
if you don't have the energy to do this you won't be able to do it
if you do have the energy to do it he might have you might you might want to use your energy for something else
i hope not but you might you must have energy to do this practice
in addition to living your ordinary life you've gotta have enough energy on top of everything you're doing
the moment by moment remembered that the people you're meeting or yourself
remember to think that
every moment and you need energy for that
and it's a great energy
but if you don't have it you won't be able to the huge be honestly i can't do it so i got know where how do i get energy and gotta find out how to get energy
and get the energy and and say okay now on a natural that enthusiasm i wanna try this amazing practice of focusing on the mind of enlightenment
focusing on this desire to live for the welfare of others and i got that now i remember that that's what i'm that's one of here work to live for the welfare of others and now in order to purify that wish i do this practice because i'm to live for the welfare of others but i'm a little bit stick thinking that they're not me
and that's not gonna help
i gotta not only lip which to live for the welfare of others but i have to remember that their me
but there myself
i need that to on top of my good wishes i need to purify myself of the idea that they're not me
our that were separate
i'm nancy

i said okay

yeah i don't according to your story doesn't like your generous solid town they get brighter
i like i'm not giving you this two dollars on this bribing you'd leave me alone
that's all you know i'm not going to go to class tonight and tell people that i didn't give a to two dollars i i i used to dollars to get you off my back and but you know but but i would like some day to be able to give it to you
and
if i could remember that your myself
you can hide remember that but next week you'll be able to remember
if you remember the person's yourself then you don't then you're not submerge into buying them off and bribing them
and you still might not given to dollars but you'll give them something
you'll give him what you want to give him because they're yourself
but you don't necessarily give yourself everything yourself ask for
has not necessarily good thing to do

huh