is it is the transmission

here i am i'm sitting before a camera and i want to say
for the camera that am i i hadn't next feelings about being ah
filmed
sorted
ha
i can i'm getting asked more and more to do that like and i was asked to live stream of the coin class at green gulch that on monday nights
and i i am
i couldn't accept the invitation
i'm
and
this is not live stream
and this this recording has not yet been relate these recordings have not yet been released the the audio and video time thinking about when i'm ready to release this upon the world
so i'm feeling my way into how much
of the the practice
i'm ready for it to the whole world to be watching besides the people who are here
and so if you have some mixed feelings about it
i i i share them with you in some people are again asked me for this
ha
and i'm just
i'm not ready just to say okay at all the requests but i'd say i'm letting this recording happen
and
so
this is something i'm
i'm want to practice with

at the end of the of that the vow which we just recited the vow of up
i guess i say how would be like hey
eighteenth century seventeenth and eighteenth century
so-called zen master
zen master tornado
at the end it says it's wishing for that all beings that we together with all beings will will realize maturity and buddha's wisdom
that sounds okay doesn't it has a wish are you okay with that wish
any problems with i wish please let me know
but some of the earlier parts when i listened to that i can imagine some people think that that's just insane
that that that we would respond to a sworn enemy
with compassion
do you know some people said just crazy
some people might say that
particularly did it particularly today
like today some people would say that crazy
ah
but there is as that's a message from the ancestors is to wow
to to wish and to and to commit to coming back
to to meeting cruelty
an injustice
to meet cruelty with kindness to meet injustice with justice
to meet did i say violence to meet violence with nonviolence
this is the example of the buddha's
and this is a vow of the body surface is to learn to do that
and before i came to practice and i knew how to meet violence with violence occasionally i would meet violence with nonviolence which i have enjoyed that
occasionally that would happen and that was quite fun to like
corvallis come media with non-violent was really
i really enjoyed that but
more basic reaction which i didn't have to train for was to i'm a violent reaction to violence
and then i heard the possibility of having a non-violent reaction to violence and i thought i want to learn that allow learn more about that
and i'm still think that i want to learn that
and if it if it arises i'm just so i'm i'm just so pleased that if i'm disliked
then i admit that with compassion if i'm insulted
and disparaged i will admit that with gratitude and ethical conduct and patience and calm whenever that happens i'm so happy
but that that it's happening yes
pardon
yeah so to at what is it had had eight the morning insult game and there was a compassionate response to it that's using the twenty four hours rather been used by the twenty four hours
at noon
i was praised and i met that with compassion that using the twenty four hours
using a twenty four hours as opportunities to practice compassion rather than getting pushed around by the twenty four hours
into
habit
yes

while one way to interpret you did here he said one way to interpret that is is that
because of our past karma
we get opportunities to transcend it
so we're rewarded by buyer for our past karma by give by being given challenges to practice compassion
if we if we have completely but got embraced and processed the results of all of our past karma
and then it was no nothing more no more challenges are coming then we have a situation called complete buddhahood there's no more there's no more common to deal with because with
we are eaten at all
ah with proper shoeing
with compassionate and ingestion and digestion
but as long as we have not processed at all
it keeps coming and giving us opportunities to convert the results of past karma which are the support of our consciousness our unconscious processes are the result of our past karma which is supporting consciousness and by the way we do
with it we'd bet we we we reverse
we transform are all the past karma all the result of pescara
so so everything that comes to us as an opportunity of practice
will keep coming until we prostate processed at all
oh but we're not by ourselves responsible for over pastime we weren't you know a lot of factors contribute to it but we get a special we get special offerings to practice compassion with and so the the challenges to him
member that everything has been got given is an opportunity to realize put his wisdom
and that will keep getting offerings until buddha's wisdom is fully realized
and even then we will still will be than we were kind of become we got wisdom slaves and we will we will function as wisdom for all beings who still have processing to do
so it's not like our job ends at buddhahood
but buddha continues to be in a way a bodhisattva of working with bangs and transforming be the life of buddha after buddha is completed that particular evolutionary line gets no more challenges so it all it is is the conversion and edification of other bags
because he's not a being anymore it's it's it's just wisdom
we respond to that
there's no blame there's only responsibility
and responsibility me is
unlimited
and unlimited in terms of how wide it is an unlimited in terms of prominent opportunities there are there's always an opportunity to respond skillfully are not every moment we have the ability to respond
huh what's given
more or less colourful more or less compassionately

so yeah i think i think it was homer justin and johnny

wisdom is the end
however the end and the means are the same
the means his compassion
and there's no end to compassion unless there were no beings suffering
but as long as they're suffering beings
there needs to be compassion so compassion is endless so wisdom is endless even though wisdom is the goal the means
is is inseparable from the goal or the body sought for career which is the means to buddhahood is the same as home
so we're both
and are working with our own and other people's suffering
we're working with our own delusions and
by that very fact we are doing buddha's work so we are
we are buddhas and bodhisattvas at the same time
and if there ever were an end to suffering beings
like a know if we started i had no more reproduction no more new babies born so we have no untrained people being born it was just trying to everybody that was alive perfectly than there would be no more need for compassion they were just be reality
everyone would realize it they've been suffering we don't need to put away anymore
in the form of compassion they would just be
reality period and nobody would be wiggling around anymore
justin
he said i believe that there are
talk about the results of our past karma said that
because it but not all not as room and others
i tend to think of when a cockfighting karma
see experience field is resulted my bass actions
his lifetime or others but you said it i think that or can be as others' actions as well
where is could it be that my actions influence others' actions which creating cycle the consequence of my actions and the consequence of your actions are intimate
they're not separate and just like you a mere no separate the contract kinds of our of our consciousness the consequences are not separate
there is in a sense a kind of
what's called and discrimination you can make between your sense organs and my sense organs
mice my sense organs are not year sense organs my consciousness is not your consciousness
but that doesn't mean that my sense organs are separate from yours
because they are interdependent but
seven not been the same does not mean separate so awareness and consciousness awareness and objects of awareness
i'm not separate
but they're not completely the same either
the the two sides of consciousness but they're not really separate they look separate and the appearance of separation
he's not separate from the knowing of the appearance of separation
so the very appearance of separation
is not separate from the awareness of it
it's an illusion and the appearance of separation is based sort of on the
belief i should say if the uses a belief in a separate self
and that belief in a herself requires ignorance or you could say requires not being really attentive if you really if we're really attentive to these self we will see that it's not a permanent in
independent power house
and if we're really attentive will notice how as we approach really deep attentiveness to self will notice that there's a desire for the self to be in control
of the objects that are known and consciousness and will and we can notice it that stressful and painful and not attentiveness can lead us to freedom from belief in the independent self and freedom for wishing that the independence
self would get control of the universe
johnny
having every bell navy commander i was
a goal for the i thought you could say guru
good agree
oh well i didn't i didn't know that i spelled it thanks
even that
the is somebody who does does the
excuse the will have somebody else
ah is somebody who works for an who who is an employee if somebody else's as well
often often a also well as a goal for the cause pay the costs conditions even the middle east for for that that a mature to what obviously appearance
i didn't accept the retirement from the navy because i could ethically do that anymore same time i had a realization that compassionate response of people like gandhi like the k jesus
torah is angie i have arrow his life but they do so there was there was far i maybe to say his vow
the their response was not just about
achieving some kind of activity with what was going on their response was to speak to the costs conditions and to invite retribution themselves necessary as a kind of way of manifesting manifesting what was caused it is
is it is part of my struggle when i hear some of our teachings
but why aren't we were we as practitioners more like martin luther king and gandhi or did not have who actually showed up vulnerable
expose what was there it did it's have anybody but they invited chose to attack them
that that's amazing like a compassionate response is not as that's something outside of school
i guess if a fab
if you feel like the only way to help people is to
do something so you'll be attacked and which will be
also media observed it wasn't just that martin luther king story i heard was it wasn't just said he invited people to attack him but he invited people to attack him where it will wear it would be witnessed
and then people all with country would see that people are treated like that he didn't like go into some place where in some dark alley
to get beat up he got beat up with media cover coverage any thought that that would be helpful and maybe he was right maybe that was a key factor and transforming the laws of our country and it's maybe the same for gandhi they did it in public has the third person tick tick no hot
or jesus
what i don't think kept on hand i don't see him getting attacked he invited in india a body but don't think he got attacked or you know that yeah so as why i have spoken in circles about know what of loving kindness you know as and about my trailer showing up to say hey we can say
when our school do like they do do what it called civil disobedience they don't necessarily asked the police to beat them up but they do get arrested and go to jail some people do that i i myself went to a civil disobedience event
at the nuclear test site and outside las vegas and i did a a buddha's birthday ceremony there because it was put his birthday but i did not actually so called break the law and got into the test site where i was supposed to be so i didn't get arrested but i was there
supporting those who did and they didn't be anybody up but yeah in our case but they did get arrested was that you more a trade training leaders have thought leaders about ethical conduct not just a brilliant in early
but they actually are there any leaders are there any leaders here
yeah but so if there's any leaders here ah i think we're trying to train the leaders here
leaders are leaders are former leaders so we are trying to train the leaders i don't know how many leaders are and center but
i just heard had to get the break about somebody being invited to be a leader
by somebody who is invited to be a leader in this room so i think some people do take leadership roles in this room
an in different circumstances year you're being leaders

i am
activism can be literally but but i'm i'm talking about being being conspicuous about our ethics
well we we were so if so then let's be conspicuous about our our on ethics as much as each of us feels ready to be conspicuous yeah yeah so
we do have public events in our school where people get up and and display their ethics
in front of people also we let people come and live with us and then we display ethics back and forth between ourselves so i think we are doing that ah but somehow and then again i'm getting asked to display my ethics on media and i'm i'm kind of saying i
i'm i'm not i'm ready for to be livestreamed
ah if our
our ethical practice or were doing because i'm not ready necessarily for it to be livestreamed sometimes i go places and i understand this is going to be live stream if i walk in the door it's going to be lies payment i accept it
and on some occasion people say could we live stream this because of such as national i say okay so then in that case it is
so i think to smart were feeling our way to what is what is the appropriate path
this display public display of our practice
what we're finding our way suzuki roshi was you know
he was tracked he was displaying his ethics and he did it you know like in his office with one person
and then he did it in front of groups of people but he passed away before you know and then he did it in two films also he led to crisis film so films of him out there so that was that him showing his ethics and he let his country who he left his country he left his country
i think in his country he he was also trying to display his ethical practice to the but i think he wanted to give that display to a foreign country
and so that so then he did and then and then we have this season center the zen center since for very radical yeah millercoors it was all down
and if i if i get invited to go someplace where i've never been and was as
there isn't much presence of demonstration of buddhist ethics i usually will go
an instant offer some public
display some public
ah demonstration and usually people will come are quite open
they're not there because they have to be so there's an openness and then and there's a demonstration and then sometimes there's an awakening to the
the buddha's wisdom
but then the question is you know which places do i go so don't assume they go some place repeatedly if there isn't many people there because there's a lot of people here
so i am trying to
publicly show myself
and show my practice and then the question is how much coverage how much dispersal he is appropriate
yes yes
is anybody else agency out there
yes
i'm just wondering how in
you were in someone like schindler
which is not a public display of ethics
and how do you know this not of shimmer
king
atomic energy commission or something i don't know that we don't know that so i think for any person in this room it
don't think for me i can't see that
quote unquote public display necessarily the most efficacious thing for actually transforming the world it's just really hard to know what's really
occasions in life
we're going for the most of the lists or never always a lot a good place to have a conversation
like the zero point
as for some people are
then if it in the world
and no one knows about it
but it but but it's still beneficial but some other people think i think i need to go public in order for this in order to help people so that so martin luther king
she might have been quite ethical and quite helpful before he went public
but actually i don't know
how what i don't know how it all works but sometimes it does work
i our founder he actually wasn't sure if you go public at the beginning
he wasn't primarily thinking of that the way to realize freedom from suffering was to go public and then he did realize for him
and then he got an invitation to go public that's the story and he thought well this isn't what i've discovered is so on
awesome and amazing that people will just like they'll think is crazy
so i don't think i should tell him by better not to tell him than for them to think it gets crazy and then he got to he got request from pretty impressive people say so and then he thought an organism he cell can be left now
this any loved isa or maybe there are some people for whom going public with would be good so he started with these five old friends and it was good but he hath for whether he wasn't sure that but he was doing it wasn't that he wasn't doing good before he started teaching
it's just said
what is our teaching then another kind of good started happening
just a second yes
two thoughts about the media thing and doing good thing just doing good in small ways like you know if you raise a child or whatever that's not really public that
if i'm a huge difference
yeah then maybe like
taking on hands mother and martin luther king's mother and buddhism as mother you know because it would his mother we have buddha so image she didn't get and she wasn't that public about it it wasn't down a media event now and it not of course it would be if we could see what his mother's you'd like be very popular
yeah for the suggests that such as in a small thing that one is during that whole heartedly them
and then and we're doing that we are doing that and then the question is sometimes is it critical to do it publicly
right the idea of invitation you know imitate the buddha was big on invitations he didn't the booty did not give teachings unless asked
and he was asked
and
i offer teachings here but i
scheme meet you
not that i'm telling you to comment that may give your teachings but that you're asking me to by coming here we don't formally do it but in some situations
at the beginning of a dharma talk
the assembly asked the teacher to come
for the the assembly sends a representative
no
would you please go ask the teacher to come and teach than they used to do that days to send their leader to go ask the teacher that the buddha or other buddha's disciples go ask the buddha's disable to come and teach the invitation is a big part of it
and so i hear johnny inviting us
two
sure the teaching and ways
in inappropriate ways in which might be difficult for us but if we're offering something good maybe it's worth it
to offer something even of is difficult
using who was inviting
johnny depp is johnny yeah he's kind of inviting us to offer our practice in in many ways including and situations where we might
i'm not be appreciated
he's inviting us but some he's invited to go because people who might not invite us
the idea of the film
thing yeah
and when i was talking to you by email in this idea of like the sam only in it i don't want it go somewhere to check if there's email i want to made a call me if they need me to know something because thinking invited actually seeing the light flashing on a method was seen instead of going out
out there thing i who in the world might have me something important today so this idea of film
it's a little bit like well if there's filmed and where it's like me i wonder if it's a little bit like email where it's inviting us away from our world that's right around as if the virtual thing and maybe it takes us away from the teachers who are there or in right now it's a if
right if i'm always in the world of like what whose communicating with me then i'm not right here so
if i'm watching a film it's not i'm not with the teachers were around me and you're not really in the film the way you are with the people you're meeting i i don't know i've seen as you but you know you would think it could it wouldn't translate exactly him so
becomes a little bit of an illusion until somebody figures out of this death and work it's not like meeting grabber the dalai lama you know i need to go meet those people i need to
go to them are go to that meeting center when they come here
or find the teacher from here
well the who's next was you just a guess pen maybe more of a statement than a question but that's fine
you know i feel like if we don't have necessarily examples of people going into world from sense and our weather uninvited why you do is protect his practice and you know try to create
garner's millennium shoulders and leaders for us to go out and are these things for others development of these things but
you are be
you know where they your that the the protector of this zen center school and practice and i'm very glad when you are where you are and that
you're available zero of us has what i'm trying to do and i'm telling you that you have the teaching to you have the teaching of such as and i met inviting you to also take care of it and i'm putting my life forward turn tell you that you have it and i that since you haven't
take care of it
and also i get invitations
like i got invited to go to on
an aids visual arab arab
at grace cathedral or something and i actually felt good about going but it's at the same time as the beginning of our
gracias machine and green gulch so
i i i've said i still have this complex i'm not going to come but i said if i'd i'd i'd like to come to other things like that so they wrote back and said well they're gonna have a memorial service for people for homeless people
people have stripped of you tied on the street people homeless people died in the streets are they're gonna have a
memorial ceremony for that so i can it that and that i think could get a schedule i might be able to go to that such an limitation and
it's possible that somebody will attack me when i'm going to the
to the church and like that's what i been practicing zen for as to like
if i get attacked on the way to the memorial ceremony for homeless people i want to see if i can like
welcome it hasn't been training for but i don't wanna ask him to bother to attack me i just
i just i'm gonna go to the event and if they do i i'm i'm i'm gonna do my best
and
if i do my best i hope this media covers
calvin new zen priest attacked approaching grace cathedral watch for to how he does it
very interesting what he did stay tuned
see we present prince does when attacked on nob hill
so i hope i do well
thank you very much for another amazing day i know abode
may our attention he fully extend to every meeting and plays way to married
as way beings are numberless ah to save them delusions inexhaustible i love to end them dharma a sad lonely
is hi to enter them but as way is unsurpassable i vow to become it