as i've told you before i really enjoy being with you here and i've been thinking of sharing something with you a which
you know it's kind of a delicate thing
a delicate thing could you move that way about one inch
thank you
it's a part of their in this delicate has said
if i if i say when i'm planning on saying to you it will probably touch you touch your heart
and touch your body so i want to know i want to recognize that when i must say we'll have some effect upon you
and i've been kind of sheltering you for a while and not sharing this with you because of the effect it might have on you
so what it is that a
well that you have thanked me many times for coming over here to be with you and you recognize that it's an effort for me to come over here
so during this particular series of classes
my my tripped over here have been relatively smooth but my trips back in yeah have been on
unusually difficult every single time
i'm running into road construction narrowing narrowing roads and big backups
have you know so it takes me a really long time going through these kind of
so that the difficult spaces on on the bridge and also on
i noticed sent on the other direction of the same story from both directions of the bridge or
and so that's been kind of difficulty for me
and one of the week or one of the night two weeks ago i had a blow out on the bridge
not just a flat tire but are gonna blow out and
so i called tow truck people but they can't go on the bridge
caltrans has to common and i'll basically forced me out the bridge i can
i can't get so the like that they got me off the bridge and then i call it torture people back again
but they never came
and they apologized and next day
well they apologize that night too but the their apologize for not coming
and so yeah so
so it wasn't just a tire it was the whole tire it wasn't just tear the we'll also got broken cosigner know what happened but we'll actually a metal wheel got perforated tomorrow
so i didn't get home till really late by three o'clock
so i'm guessing you to share with you that i'm having some difficulty getting back from here and
and i'm really glad to be with you again
and to contemplate on
a teaching wishes
intended to to liberate us and make us more able to help people in this world of suffering
so on yeah so there's many things going on like god tonight as you may know there's lots of
people running for president debating with each other
about what's what's really most important in life
now and i guess they all agree that it's really important to take care of everybody and and
and that the you know the people with lots of money should join in that effort things like that
which almost everybody agrees with even the even the wealthy people think probably we should help some it's kind of debate about how much
anyway we watch these things happen and then we wonder well what's my
what's my response to this to this world with
all the sufferings and issues and
yeah so i'm i've been saying to you that keeping that question alive is
appropriate to benefiting beings wondering what we can do to be helpful
moment by moment and also using the teaching
to encourage us to to
to meet the world in an upright and balanced away
with the teaching that if we are upright and balanced and meeting suffering and the causes of suffering that that gives us the best chance to make the appropriate response to beneficial response
but being being upright and balanced is on
is precarious or
people today i was diagnosed in people and they mentioned when i was talking about what it's like to be balanced they said they said that's a slippery slope and i would say it's not so much that that's a slippery slope but there's a slippery slope all around it when your balanced all around your slippery you can easily slip when your
balance once you slip your give you're done slipping
you just go off in some direction
so it a slippery slope means it's often like a slippery slope to doing something inappropriate something unhelpful something even worse than unhelpful

and will we kind of don't like that we kind of like don't like to have like a slippery slope right over here which if if we slipped on and we're going to do something really
unfortunate we don't like that right
it's not a happy thought exactly
and then over here of same thing as they're slippery slope over here and over here we can make mistakes and
when you have when you're upright you have not read your and hadn't really made mistake your balanced but when you commit to some line it could slip into something unfortunate and again we kind of don't like that we'd like to be someplace where there's most slippery slopes around is like all flat and we can just walk carefully
never make any mistakes when that be nice
so as some people do as i've mentioned before is they just pretend like they're in a place where there's no slippery slopes at least not for them where they know what's right
and and they're not like protocol it open minded about it
because if they they feel if they're open minded about it they might slip
i can hear open minded about where cruelty is that you might slip into cruelty if you're open minded about
what the precept of not killing means he might kill somebody a lot of people think i had to rigidly hold onto the precept of not killing otherwise i might kill somebody
but holding onto it you have just slipped
doesn't mean you're gonna kill anybody but you've slipped because now you're in a position where you know what's right
and no longer a question what does that precept mean
so this ongoing questioning
is part of
we can say ethical behavior because who could say enlightened behavior enlightened responding to the world includes
being questioned and questioning

so i may think this is killing this is evil this is wrong
and if i recognized that what i'm what i'm aware of is what i think is wrong
and i do think it's wrong or i do think that's harmful and i do think it's harmful but to notice that what i'm talking about is what i think and being aware that it actually might not be anything more than what i think is wrong then someone against my say whether you
could slip into doing something wrong if you're not sure that it's not just say you think it's wrong but you know it's wrong and you're right
so they would maybe recommend when you shouldn't like just be aware that what you think is right is what you think is right and but it might not be right it shouldn't like consider that what you think is right might not be
that what's right maybe beyond what you think and don't think
and wouldn't it be nice to realize that and
i think that a part of the practices to say it is possible to realize was right beyond what you think is right like that
famous roomy bone there is a field
beyond ideas he didn't i don't think he said beyond good and bad i think he said beyond ideas of good and bad heard the upon
there is a field beyond ideas of good and bad i'll meet you there
and the way you get to that field is
by not grabbing are rejecting
ideas of good and bad
if you grab him you're stuck not you don't you're not you exile yourself from that field
if you don't if you don't pay attention to them that to say so we also say turning away and touching her both wrong for it's like a massive fire what's like a massive fire the reality of up
of an enlightened ethical being
he knows both the touch it or turn away from it and knew that was everything including what you think is right and what you think is wrong and i'm including if you don't know
but it isn't why knowing so it seems to me say i know that's right but my knowing is not beyond my ideas
are you could even say my knowing is beyond my ideas
but you know and then i have no ideas by which i can prove what i know but then again i'm open to being question and again that i'm proposing is more upright and it's always
her upright here you don't have to worry about slipping
and when you're not upright in a way you don't have to worry about slipping because you to slipped
so once you once you like become self righteous you don't have to worry about slipping anymore because you have flipped
you've successfully slipped congratulations
he slipped into self-righteousness
which again children do that quite naturally
at first they don't know anything about ethics
so their their knowledge is almost zero in their confidence is almost zero
and so john point pointed out the dunning kruger effect right
you can google it has a gunning the dunning kruger effect if you have zero knowledge than you don't have any confidence but when you have a little bit of knowledge your confidence
shoots way up and then a little bit more shoots up even more but then a little bit more is touched it stopped and put it in and at the top part is called the summit of of stupidity
before you knew anything you're not as stupid as after you know a little bit lot a little bit of knowledge is dangerous because a little bit of knowledge can shoot you up and so children when they first get the ideas about like
ethics when i know a little bit they suddenly are like except maybe with their mother who is like god you know would you know for ordinary people like grandparents they know much more about everything that they just known they know little tiny bit but they have tremendous confidence which i off
can tell you you know my grandson she asked me what kind of what's your favorite animal and i say humans and he says he went are not animals
a couple years later he says what's your favorite anime on to humans he says
humans are not animals and a couple of years later i say it he says he he's learned that humans could be considered animals but again i'm not think humans are animals i just said when he asked me the question that humans are my favorite animal but i really don't know if humans are animals
i don't even know what humans are but still if you asked me what my favorite animal is i would still say humans
i could say dogs but i don't know dogs are either so on and really i do think humans are great and dogs are too actually
and and the greatness of dogs is related to the greatness of humans and vice versa
anyway the children they have great confidence and they're really deluded and they learn learn more and are competent starts dropping back down and an average this kit called them
i think the the pit or the valley of of despair and then as knowledge increases the gradually going to the slope of enlightenment
and then have an it'll it in and they enter the plateau of sustainability it isn't really get back up to complete perfect confidence in this particular presentation they get up to a sustainable level of competence which is pretty high but i would say is sustainable in the sense that you can continue the conversation
by which you developed your
ah your knowledge and you develop your knowledge by telling people you knew exactly what was going on completely complete confidence in and they'd say something to you and that at first it drops away down but then i just conversation goes on to start you start to get more knowledge and your confidence comes up gradually and the levels or
off to a high level of confidence in continuing the practice of learning from their endless
lifelong learning and you have confidence in that and the idea of competence and and new it can sustain that confidence the first kind of confidence she couldn't sustain
the second of confidence you can sustain even as you get feedback on your knowledge
so one of the key things here is
the statement that
practice and enlightenment are not too different things you don't practice to get enlightenment
i mean that's not enlightenment alignment is a way of practice
and
the buddha's have a pet have a practice which is the realization that they're not any different from sentient beings or take way buddha's but in way buddha
his understanding and practicing
which is not different from our practice
and buddha has lots of confidence and also buddha is open to being questioned and but it has confidence without
touching it
are turning away from it
i was i have felt that suzuki as she had
moral authority but not moral superiority
it wasn't like he knew more than us or less than us
but i feel like he was upright with what he knew
and because of that
he it wasn't that he had that what he knew was his authority is authority was a way he dealt with what he knew
and and what he didn't know many
you can you can have the sit you can have a lot of authority dealing with not knowing what's going on and you can have a lot of authority dealing with thinking that you do know what's going on
in both cases you can have authority of showing people how to deal with situations where somebody me are you thinks they know what's going on or somebody mere you doesn't know what's going on but it's like it's not like when you don't know what's going on there's no opportunities
and when you do go on there is opportunities are there isn't opportunities when you do know is going on are you think you do and in the other cases there is in both cases there is opportunity because whatever the case
whatever the case the buddha is not the sleep slightest bit different from that case
there's no case at the buddhist different from and some cases are terrible are horrible but the buddhist not someplace else from horrible cases
the buddha is the way that case is becoming liberated
it doesn't like say it doesn't like i want to go on make horrible things not horrible it just makes you realize
yeah that's not horrible things are horrible and horrible things are not horrible
doesn't make him that way it wake it awakens you to that and then your and then we
we want to be we want to be liberated from horrible situations
we want to be liberated from terrible situations
but that includes wanting to be if that the the realization that includes wanting to be liberated from good situations
it isn't like we want to let go of terrible situations and hold onto great situations holding onto good ones make some terrible
so
to be upright with good situations you'll be free of good situations to be upright with terrible situations that we freed him from terrible situations without denying them are rewriting history or you know again as i said
before we have some terrible history
you know every day we make new terrible history we gotta we got it right and the trend but there's also a possibility transcended but the transcendence of it is by being thoroughly accountable for it and responsible for it the upright with it
and that were being with it is liberation and that way of being with it is buddha and but has never separate from all this all in all this
pretty good better excellent and not so good and terrible all these situations which means all these living banks all these terrible situations are situations of living beings they're not abstract things necessarily although they could be that too because abstraction is a thing that living beings can do
yes
the way that is
it is also
the slippery slope has hers
i would say i would say as positive in the sense that it's a warning
or accident honey the world
it could be in it can be just say he could be an action absolutely yeah it can be active
yeah if we can be active and anyway it is activists is it's acting it's performing the function of being slippery
and so there is a slippery slope and so we got something to be careful of room
rather than say where can we go there's no slippery slopes
well
again once she's if if you want to get away with slippery slopes or just step on one and you'll slide to the bottom of it and and you'll be like that not on a slippery slope anymore you will have just slid and now urine some really does the deer and the bad situation that you are afraid you slip into
like i don't know why not caring that people are suffering
so i think people are suffering and if i recognize that my thought about them suffering is not their suffering but just my thought i could slip yes but if i if i think that there are
suffering and i am not open to that that and i'm not open to that being a thought but i think it's a reality than islip to it's a different type of slipping into two different areas
and it's hard to say which is worse
like again people someone who's talking about the slippery slope of for this
you know this seems to be something bad like i think i did something wrong
and if i if i think if i yeah and if if i'm then aware that what i think that i just that the thought that i did something wrong is just a thought
and whether i do something wrong or not is something to be may be discerned but i do think i did something wrong and then person said if you don't take care of that you might slip into not taking care of that thought i did something wrong
and that's true it might happen
and the other way yeah so that's one way that you
i see if you if you don't
take your thoughts to you're doing something wrong seriously enough something really bad might happen and i would say yes that might
if you don't take it to the proper level of seriousness
but if you do the other way of i think drugs
sample they did something wrong
can i don't think that was just a thought but think that's a reality than what you do to those people sometimes is
equally bad as what you might do if you wrote off your own or that if you wrote off their not wrote and wrote off your ideas at they're doing something harmful
if you read out their ideas that are doing something harmful and might have big arm so i'm not talking about writing it up writing it off is a danger that we can slip into when we become a little bit open minded about our thoughts that seem like
that's same why wrong
i have thought that seems wrong about my own behavior and then if if i am open about that you realize well that's my thought about it but who knows it exactly wrong that openness to who knows it's actually wrong rather than
it is wrong i think it's wrong and it is
day
and someone might feel like i'd rather make the mistake of it is wrong rather than make the mistake of i'm not sure it is and then slip into the problems that happen perhaps because you're open to not be sure that you are wrong maybe you'd continue to do it
since i thought i was wrong but i'm not sure i did so maybe i'll keep doing it that could happen and when deputies arable were yes but the other way
huh
and i hope the other way is i think that person did something wrong or those people did something wrong and there's no openness about that been my thoughts it's true that they did something wrong and look what happens when people think that a bunch a person or group
nazi germany is
is the big example in our recent history of where people thought some people were doing something wrong and there was no openness about it no nuance or just a growth they're doing something wrong and then all these things follow from that terrible adherents to them that view which i think really
think there could be debated
but there was no debate there was just cruelty following from being sure yes
yes a secret
yeah
yeah
are you saying
goddamn i thought was right
yeah yeah yeah that's what i would do
yeah and in
yeah so
i
i think i think what i think was wrong was first of all that they they say they stopped questioning their own views of things and when at once they did that they became very cruel
and and now i think that what they did but also how they got into that fix i think that is not wrong not just like with god it's it's not exactly wrong it's it's kind of like evil
it's evil from for what they did was evil but also the way they thought about what there were doing was evil to and i i got my thought but i'm not but i'm going to fall into the same pit that they are unless i questioned my own thought that they're wrong question or
five
our
try to rescue people stop the more also helps that here
for like i i'd say question whether
my action is to talk about this that's all well on one side
i'm not saying that's all i'm just telling example of my app my action is to think about this and and also to to bring this up to encourage people to not do the same thing
my main that sometimes when my core activities is to encourage myself and others not to do make the same mistake they made
in other words my when i'm but i'm doing is education based on seeing miss seeing a tremendous number of mistakes of a similar variety now my
i'm i'm sorta like sort of in the same ballpark as a german government which teaches kids not to not to do that again as
yeah so i didn't you say that's what
you
during the jets years crushing halls trap
yeah wouldn't say yeah but this first also think for all us here
she deal with the world yes
and so are you saying that everybody she just constantly issue
faces or yes yeah that's all well not that the done that well
yeah i guess that's all because educating people about evil is the way to get them to be free of it
over seven thousand years saying it probably wouldn't stop some people like awesome
thousand years or i'm to or left the water or gg
the the the evil i'm suggesting this is a difficult part i'm suggesting that the evil will never be eliminated i'm not think you i haven't seen their be less evil since since that time i i'm not sure there's more but
but i'm sort of trying to continue to meet the evil in a way to liberate beings from the evil
and
yeah if i see an example of it than i would like to meet that example in such a way as to liberate that example and on my feeling is if someone's doing something i think is evil if i talk to them
with respect and compassion i think i have a better chance of waking them up from that than if i talked to them for example from a position of are going to call a moral superiority which just makes them more angry at me and makes them more one
was questioning so if i questioned what i think it's evil is possible to do that in such a way that the evil situation where doesn't exclude me
can become free
that's what i'm trying to do in in a particular example not to mention
educate people we don't split we don't see so much evil right in this class right now
but we but we can educate ourselves and be more you have been more skillful by what we talked about here and so that when we see some evil we might be able to actually go up to it and say you know what's the matter sweetheart and the person might just be disarmed
and the evil just drops away because what they were trying to get was compassion and this extremely horrible way
and then when they get the compassion they sometimes snap out of it
and become disarmed
the the evil becomes disarmed
that's the hope and there and as examples of where that happens and the examples of an ear and and when it does happen when the disarming happens it usually happens not always but it usually happens when there's some compassion
i just thought of one time i was at the san francisco zen center and i was in the entryway and
the door opened and one of our students came in followed by another person who i didn't know and the other person had a knife
and it looks like that person and and that person was threatening this the student of zen center and that students somehow
that didn't exactly run away from him but sort of brought that person in descents an our to get help to do with this person
and i saw them from a distance and i have some you know like we all do some intuitive processes which are give me a feeling for what i can and cannot deal with and i just felt like
the criminal level of craziness i felt i just felt like i couldn't really go up to the sky and talk through him i just felt like i was not the right person for the job of disarming him so i just stepped into room right next to where i was and called nine
one one
and
yeah and it was amazing like it was less than a minute and adorbs and center open and two policemen came in and they were they didn't like attack that guy they just presented him with actually some kindness he needed help and they were there to help him and when they when they came
i'm in you know i don't know exactly what happened like this said trump to your weapon or something they dropped it and they peacefully took him away was just the right thing for him but i didn't get into
i didn't get into like he's a bad person i got more into like i want it i feel responsible to take care of this situation this person i know is coming here to get up my help and our help there were some other people around there but i was in a position where are these kind of situation for usually my responsibility to take
garo and i public in this case i was not the person who go talk to him
and so i called the police and that was a good decision and they came and it took him away and
that man had just thrown his baby in the ocean
he was too you know totally crazy
just to as baby in the ocean and for some reason or other as he was running away
pulled over and stop represents center and then got gotta of his current tax somebody else but he was just a crazy person and
some crazy people i feel like i can interact with and disarm the situation and some people who are not crazy i feel like i can interact with them and that we together can be disarmed and find piece together so there's all these varieties but in that case i did do something and it worked out
well
he look like you're in deep thought
yeah but then when so now case i didn't do that and i feel like i didn't get all huffy and puffy about it
i recognized my the limits of my own ability and according to what i could tell it looks like we needed help from these people large people with weapons and they didn't they didn't use their weapons and they disarmed him and worked out well in other cases
for example somebody comes into the building and
what's in the city center and goes up into people's rooms and steal stuff
and then the person is apprehended and
and again i'm i'm in a position i'm talking to people that come into steal things from zen center and on
the answer i am in know so he was escorted by a group of people into my little office and and i started talking to a button he was not admitting that he stole the stuff
and if i said on
if you didn't steal the stuff you know i'm not argue with you bought it but why don't you just give me all your money
and if people don't come forward
i'm saying that the rooms were stolen money withdrawn stuff i gotta give it back to you
work we know we're not going to keep your money and if nobody reports any money been lost so don't just give it to me and that didn't quite convinced him and i said to me
hazard to if you don't give me the money
you know you won't be welcome to come back here again and he wasn't even a student but i basically i said you know well if you if you just take this money go out i think you you won't be welcome here again but he was actually he got he was welcomed into the building so he's come in and rob people
he could feel that and hundred and why i said them what you usually don't say to a criminal if you don't give us the money back you know you won't be good you won't be welcome to come back here again
but i did say that to on and that's what snapped 'em out of it and it gave me the money and hidden didn't come back to get it so i guess had an him and then i did give the money back to the people who i think we got all the money and got it back and
yeah but i was kind of like practicing with this guy he was like i was treating a kind of like zen instrument like you know
what if you didn't steal at fine i mean it's not like i know you stole this if you didn't steal it to find and if you didn't steal it to have no problem giving it to me just for a little while i just take a pill take a little while to find out you come back tomorrow i'll give it all to you if if in and we weren't gonna keep it if if nobody reports it
but he's still he didn't quite buy the next step was like trading kind of like a member of our community like if you don't do this with it's gonna be hard for you like and that sort of it was like i think he felt like i was treating it with some like you as a human being rather than than i don't know what non-human
a burglar a burglar he's not a human rather than a burglar who is a human or a possible burglar because you know these people saw you in the rooms so that that's the reason i'm asking you for to give me the money but i'm just saying that what i'm saying as conversation with evil
conversation with
a suspected alleged criminals
but sometimes a conversation we have to have some police to help us and but it's still the spirit of it as conversation and i think i sometimes talk to police officers and i say are you a are you a peace officer
and they often say yeah that's what i that's what i'm trying to do
that's that's our hope that were peace officers and
yeah it's nice update and peace officers i think
i'm more successful when i respect the people they're dealing with because if you don't respect somebody especially if it's a
person with on testosterone in their blood if you don't respect him
they get very upset
on the other hand if you do respect him
if sometimes stimulates other chemicals to come into the bloodstream
if you respect people
if your body starts releasing serotonin when when you feel your respected and that calms you down
so if you're full of rage or whatever or not maybe you're not but if we are you're anxious and afraid and somebody comes to you and and gives you respect even if you're in the midst of committing a crime or just committed a crime you can kind of come down and listen to them so this is like possibilities but the point is it
it's it's not it's like i don't know what's going on here but i want to have a conversation with you i don't know what's going on with here but i want to respect you so we can work this out
ability we can work this out but
it's gonna be much more likely if i respect you and then maybe you can respect me and you can see that maybe i'm not afraid of you maybe because i feel friendly towards you even though i'm suspecting that you've done something really harmful or prepare but you're about to
yes
very well
a job
yeah i said
it was the zen monk from i'm from america or pornhub
a japanese emperor
oh well with a month present or okay
get down there was a teacher
presentation and but he said at one particular markers were there
slightly wrong
when world war two was ending at em
the asked he ever had the idea that was pregnant and time that when we believe in
right and reflect death
and itself to know is calligrapher who left an additional like that idea as me
that's the story is that was the isn't that the activists and and
yeah and i think he may be heard the story about on the eve of the cuban missile crisis to
two men met in a bar in washington
and one of them worked for the russian and one of the way for the americans and they both knew their boss the new both new the presidents of the two countries and then the men towards the man said to each other does your boss really want to go to war
and the other ones who know this year is no but they have to if they can find a way to not look weak
if either one from call it off that they may be attacked for looking week so let's leave that up the so they went back to their people say what what what would you how can you call it off in such a way that you wouldn't look weak and they found out a way to do it and and then the russian stopped
ah
they withdrew the missiles and american ship stopped because it was away from both sides to not be able to god loves her face that they had to have conversation find that
ks creation discover
and

imagination
is available on the time and if your behalf if your balanced you have more imaginative resources than when you're on balance i would say
the back
we have
he can master
eating masterpiece
well i wouldn't say it's uncorrelated but if i watch also that same people who are
who didn't have much knowledge but had a lot of confidence is this young people when it comes to being creative they often when they're really
really into it and a lovely way they aren't usually being self righteous
the they're often realize that they're being creative and like they're thinking of something like therein therein the in the study in the house but suddenly they're an ocean and they're swimming in the ocean but they don't really think that an ocean but they're acting kind of like they were in the ocean and
they're inviting other people to join their imagine a imaginary swimming in the ocean in in the house but again
when they get stuck on their self righteousness usually their imagination is temporarily
either blocked or undermined and sometimes if somebody can be imaginative with their put the child's being stuck the child can like join that imagination and get unstuck so when we're when we're not stuck our imagination serves us better and if we are stuck somebody else's imagination
you can come and help us they can find a way like i said that example of a which i thought told him before it is this big guy gets onto a trolley and he's threatening everybody on the on there
on the trolley and my friend was a martial artist has waiting for to come back and he's going to like teach him a lesson but the trolley stops in a little tiny man gets on and says what's the matter sweetheart
that's kind of make an imaginative thing to do like
just he thought of the perfect thing to say to him
like what's the matter with you or you shouldn't be you shouldn't treat people so in such a terrifying way he didn't say what's the matter swiftkey his imagination and same with children that they can sometimes they can sometimes especially if we help them they can sometimes come up with something which is can snap adults out of their big stuck
and vice versa adult adults can sometimes help to child snap out of there being stuck so
imagination is a great resource and it comes to play with were
kind of uncommitted so we have a basic commitment to do something beneficial in this world but then based in some situation before we're committed we have a lot of possibilities are imagination can go almost anywhere
once we commit well that's not the end of the woman in temporarily our imaginations been narrowed
it's a it's an it's a moralist infinite resource imagination
it can turn
like mister proust you know he'll mr bruce
he wrote a book called remembrance of time lost so the book this huge book is remembering all the time he wasted not doing his work
any i'm very interested all the interesting ways he avoided doing his work avoided his masterpiece but which is masterpiece his masterpiece is telling all the time he wasted
and again people don't think of proof but he's actually very funny because the whole books and joke it's about time wasted which by the end of the book he realized all that wasted time is exactly what the masterpieces so his imagination saved all those years when it wasn't doing as
work and and he wasn't him he basically wasn't doing his work he was avoiding the very difficult thing of writing a masterpiece he didn't exactly have writer's block he more had like writers laziness
and in the book there's various places where he was just ready to go to work and then something really interesting happen and that was hit from
but he in the end here in the last chapter is recovery of time last of first as remember remembering all the to all the time you wasted can turn into recut make converting all the wasted time into a masterpiece
so that's our history you know we have wasted lots of time
but by honoring that and taking care of it is not a waste of time week we can be redeemed
but not by skipping over the time wasted but by bringing compassion to it and then letting the imagination
two amazing the amazing things that it can do
but i said again before
transcendence of are all the time we've wasted transcendence of our history
he's proved real by would be willing to account for all the history
so proust accounted for all that history
and because he wasted time in so many creative ways he had so many creative things to to relate and a basically he's very funny
but in the jokes sort of takes a while usually thanks
about two thousand and five hundred pages to get the joy
but he but he's very entertaining and how he relates how we wasted time and what a petty person he was really petty but he tells us about it
the you know refined and detailed an intimate way but still petty and selfish and boom and and then he all but also he could tell us about other petty people but in a way that didn't make anybody not a human all the terrible people he hadn't this book or
so mean to each other nobody was made into non-human he was and there were his masterpiece of their various colors they were his notes
yes oh you're saying
imagination
a

one of the aspects of the blue a cold stare
start accumulating nourish one thing about the expert the truest realize is that a you know little about what they are exposed actually
they don't read
that curiosity
his is on her resignation
who am i don't
her know if i think i know something it's actually
an imaginative feet to be to think of who may be adopted
it is possible to that actually i'm not completely right wow
what i would imagine to spot some people have never thought that it's a great breakthrough when they do
particularly young people have not actually bought the thought maybe i'm not actually right
somebody has to teach him that they're usually
yes and yes
you too
a bit age before beauty
oh so i'm reminded of this story
you're saying maybe so we pulled the this is grace
a and
i was putting more difficult to get away with that like when people maple either started telling you
this is this is terrible says and she gets it may be so my makes a difference salted
right
julie
are some of the selfies that getting into powder i stay on re face over
are really stuck to their know i mean i mean
no i have no way no way of them not being insulted i think that that's always a danger
if you if somebody tells you that year you know a worthless monk that you're you're a disgrace to buddhism
and you say no i'm not they don't feel insulted
right they just think it disagree with them huh what is he respected their the yeah yeah like yeah
so maybe they do maybe they don't film soldier could you say no i'm not i'm i'm not a bad monk or you know in this case he was falsely accusing he didn't say well i didn't do that
he is so
the japanese for expression also desk you can say that when somebody tells you that it's gonna be hot tomorrow
so awesome desktop is he could somebody can tell you charlie wilson is coming this afternoon also nascar but also i don't like what you did are so dense it's more like registering that they said it isn't it but it has the i think it has the new
nuance or maybe what you say is true so it's not so much it's you know i didn't do that it's more like well maybe i did
you know maybe i'm a bad person and they might and they might feel insulted if you tell me i'm a bad priest
i think i think i would be good for me actually think well maybe i am as possible then you may feel insulted if i if i say well maybe i am you might go but the and there's nothing i can do to stop you from people for being insulted by whatever i do this whatever i do people can be averse to insulting
but that's just another conversation piece and to to practice this way thinking that if you practices when you're not going to get challenge know that's unrealistic and
yeah it's unrealistic you are going to get challenge if you if you say no i didn't if you say yes i did if you saw if they also desk whatever you say it people can feel insulted and challenger in his case when he said when he was falsely accused and he said autodesk or is that so
so it's always translated in english is that so it's gonna be hard to mars and so charlie came to town is not so you're a bad person is that so it has a kind of thing like maybe it's so and
but maybe more on the side of accepting them maybe it is so resident or what might be solved probably not it's a little bit more like all his effort is oh is this what's happening in our eyes people are saying this to me
and then and then when they said the opposite you're a great priest yes well maybe i am
you know
hey ya it's possible i'm great priest
somebody somebody somebody can do that sciences when it gets you in this day yeah
it seems that you really didn't feel that was appropriate to say maybe so
it goes to know this is your chair he said a senior
yeah i'm so in this case when he came in i didn't i didn't really talked him he was like about forty feet away from me off so i was approaching i just felt like it was not really something that have a conversation about and the what he wasn't actually saying and it's making any statements to me he was just threatening this person with a knife
life so
yeah and i didn't have to be absolutely sure that he was dangerous to call the police but he looked dangerous to me enough so i call the police and
yeah it will seem like a good thing to do but i i wasn't like i didn't do anything to insult him i didn't he was too far away from me to talk
and but i was therein and wallet and in like i say in the forty five seconds i was watching he was still sort of i was ready to see if something else came up but nothing came up is he just kept being threatening and and you if you actually lunged at somebody i think i might have gone and trying to stop him but he was
isn't really i knew i was there a and i was also sensitive to it if i came towards him to close he might my scare him
and so and it was like is it like this gives expression kind of a dance
but i i don't i don't think he felt insulted by anybody in space and when a police came he just kind of like surrendering and
down
so anyway i i thought it was really cool and then when the monk said ah desk when he was falsely accused and also said that autodesk when he was praised for what he did between the accusation and taking care of the baby all those years i thought that was really good in both cases to
basically be nonviolent in response to violence ah an insult and the other case be nonviolent towards praise and again lot of people think well dj been nonviolent tours praise but again to be strict if you get praised in you
you actually apprehended as so it's kind of disrespecting that praise like rather just listened to it he say well that's true it's like it's not really being is being little bit disrespectful of it so it's also being disrespected people criticize me
it's gonna be disrespectful just to sort of think that's true and like apprehend that is more like a few criticize me i want to be open to your criticism
and a people ask you to do something in in people tell you something about yourself
if something can give a talk intimately so that was a good talk
i don't believe when they tell me it's a good talk and so that's a good talk i just believe they told me that
and then sometimes people say that was a good talk you know i you know that had just like what i think i think all
tracy
on
the things you're saying

having a lot worse
a favour
what you go
i must have people in hot
the other gang members i don't know
there's nothing made up of that
and and yeah the perfect is offering seven program
there's a lot of the pace
the best friends and i was just from tonight i realized with probably early there in line with estates subdivision or how awful habit if this email comes from here and there are no hamper
in one to one for somebody say he earns like the sun
him
you know what you said about not the young people that come with judges distant yeah go
how is a week sunday
love having him i'll never forget
dawson
and he may be feels like i'm i'm looking at somebody who doesn't think i'm horrible teacher said but actually you might think it's horrible but you might not believe it
hey truth is actually
yeah but you could be thinking that they're horrible and just say that's just my thought what they are i do not know that i do think they're horrible or i do think what they did have horrible one of my famous stories is one time i i was talking to somebody at tassajara during up a monastic retreat and i
i said to this person i do not believe what i'm thinking of you are i do not believe what i think you are i do not believe what you think you i keep saying that because i i was on the verge of believing what i thought she was and she liked persona watching me say that
and it worked out really well i did not believe what i thought she was i did not slip into that and she never knew what i was thought he was but anyway
but she was happy that i didn't believe it because it was peaceful but i had to say that to myself and let her noted that i was coaching myself that way because it would not be good if not good to believe what we think people are but also not to deny what we think people are but to respect our view of people and then
that than that view or not be harmful if we really are kind to it it won't harm us or them but not as to get rid of it but it might go away in your case might go away
that that
say
being a cat
situations
i've been thinking about com
a victim of salt
i
in in your language
his passion for the situation
yeah that would be applying compassionate to to the story and and memory and body sense is an accounting
accounting is part of compassion it's not all of it there's also like being careful of the paid around this being tender with it as also part of compassionate being open to it being patient with the pain of it that's also apartment but another part of it is being careful of it and accounting
and in the accounting process we become free of blaming
so did you say
no i'm being being accountable and accounting
do both account i am i want to be accountable to you i also wonder why i count myself and i want to account you and i want you know account me
the samsung presents and right now is being audited
the number of accounts yeah they're looking at our accounts to see if we did a good job like
we're we're careful will be honest and and so an audit means you're going to be you can listen
they're going to listen to you they're going to ask your questions and you're gonna listen to them it's odd is listen and it's accounting and so now our accounting office is being audited and not ordered in our meditation classes
but you can come in order the meditation crisis but the auditor particularly odd stiff accounting office
this is
this is part of the buddha way is to is to do accounting
and to do accounting of wholesome things had an awesome thanks
it's the path of freedom without without erasing
history
but relate to it in a with our imagination and again our imagination is most
what god
ah omnipotent
when when you're balanced it can be applied in an interaction
justin
laura
oh
nice if i hesitated
cause you don't think explanation right actions that can be done or question
i been for your basement
why australia where our neighbor
he requested time
nice the national resistance all
boss
right you you can and you will you you won't stop acting just because your question that you're going to keep acting
it just as questioning will make your action more peaceful and more respectful and more harmonious and more liberating but if you don't quest you're going to keep acting too but if your question in want to say stop your actions because questioning is an action but other you know you keep
breathing you keep nodding your still you'll keep shaking your head you'll keep salivating you'll keep moving you you're going to keep being act be just that the questioning makes your activity on the path of becoming liberated liberated and liberal
eating without the questioning without that openness our actions are not fully engaging in the process of buddha a good activity
but doesn't mean and but also if you're not question you can also try to stop acting
but that's an action
he can also sit still if you're not questioning but that's an action you can also shut up
but you can also speak and move with questioning or without
and i'm i'm encouraging us all to proceed it in our active lives because we are active creatures to proceed at you know kind of groping wondering questioning what what's the way
you know may i may i have that
glass of water
right the thing in our i have to say out loud i just think myself i have their glass of water
matter know maybe i'll ask me i have a glass of water and then maybe you say
you say not yeah and then maybe maybe that's enough for that for the time being but miles and say
oh could i have a glass of coke and you might say
my say yes and i might say oh well i don't really want to conquer want to water
and i knew you know it's it's proceed questioning lee respectively tenderly
just like at the beginning i told you something tried to tell you tenderly because i thought it would affect you
but i was kind of i've been questioning myself whether i should share this with you
and i don't know if was beneficial but i i i tried to do it gently and