Melting the Root of Transgression

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her part of our practice seems to be open
and and as attention between repetition and being repetitive
we have an unrepeatable life and and yet
in a tradition with sometimes seem to be
repeating things
tech we just chatted ah a
written by some
have eternal peace
the lofty priest of eternal peace wrote a vow and we just recited it
stats out i vow from this life on throughout countless lives
to hear the true dharma
when the vehicle sometimes called the body sought for vehicle
the vehicle off
the path to buddhahood
we sometimes ask where it is from a mapo firmware
how is this is this path
sustained where is it
perceive its nourishment from and an answer is often given the bodhisattva path is
carried out by great vows it is sustained by great vows
it is supported by great vows
so at the beginning here today we recited
some great vows
did you hear them
so that the beginning of the path
his vows
and the path
here's in some sense for already on the path but we may not notice it when way when we
feel and express vows in a sense when just begin
a path again
so in a sense this morning when are recited days he was like admit it could be like a new beginning
again today we have recited i vow from this life and there are countless lives to here is a true dharma
do you
do you love to hear the showdown
is that wow
living in you
are you sustained
by deadlocked do you carry out that wow
upon meeting the true dharma
i will renounce worldly affairs
i will renounce distractions
from the dharma which i have met
and in doing so in in renouncing distractions from the dharma i have met
i will maintain the bodhidharma i will maintain it
in meeting it by renouncing distractions from it and in doing so the great earth and all living beings together will attain the border way this is about
this is a vow smoke zach in my vow it's a vow which supports me it's a vow which i am carrying out it is a vow
which i'm living how about you
are you living a vow that when you meet to true dharma
he will renounce were really affairs and maintain it and in doing so the great earth and all living beings will attain the buddha away
i'm not trying to talk you into this
i'm talking i am trying to talk myself into it down
and i'm enjoying
talking myself into this vow
i'm enjoying the ongoing process of making myself this wow
i've letting his vow become me
letting his vow make me
i'm enjoying that
first there is actually
first there is somebody gave me his wow
first i received this fall
for somebody offered it to me it was offered to me and i received it and after i received it i said
i commit to this some make sense at all
does it make perfect complete sense
i received this wow
what bow to hear the true dharma
that was given to me
have you received about
now i commit to it
after committing to it than i can practice it
which i can make my life i can offer my life to the practice of this mile
and this verse about arousing the wow it goes on beyond the initial var and yes the initial val it goes on after
and in doing so the great earth and all living beings together will attain perfect freedom and peace on the buddha way it goes on it says in this translation it says fall though but it could also say however however what you've just
what's the however you can forget it he made a vow but you can get distracted you made the vow that when you meet the dharma you're not going to be distracted but after finishing their vow the next moment you could be distracted
therefore we say however
karmic accumulations have occurred somehow
becoming an obstacle to practicing the vow which i just said
and then as you know the first goes on to extol the virtues of confession and repentance
the repetition is
we keep going back to the wow
and committing to it and practicing it and then noticing that those obstacles to it that we
get distracted then we practice confession and repentance then we go back to the vow
we receive it again we commit to it again and then we try to practice it again and then we get distracted again and then we confess and repent and will go back and receive the vow again and we commit to it and we practice it and then we get
distracted and then with k that's a better repetition we go through that
recently someone came to see me and i think i said to him is there anything you want to tell me
he said
i feel like every time i come to see you are meet you i confess
and repent

and i thought when you said that yeah that's right
i didn't say that to him but i guess i thought
he comes in confesses and repents
he comes and confesses his distraction
from his aspirations from his vows
he has aspirations
to walk the bodhisattva path
and he comes to see me and he confesses he gets distracted from his aspiration
and he feels kind of embarrassed about it
so he tells me he noticed that he does that and i said hey i asked him he wanted to tell me anything and that's what he told me
and then he said
beforehand in the lead up to meeting you
i feel uncomfortable
i feel resistance
to going in the room
and then i go in the room
and i confess and repent and i feel
cleansed and fresh and encouraged and feel like it was good that i went
and i said that's normal i think of a lot of people
don't sell effect oh goody i get to go and confess my shortcomings now i get to go and confess i got distracted and how much sorrow i feel about that
the first word
definition of repentance his sorrow but it's not sorrow in general
it's sarah related to my
karma my activity and it's a image that it's the part of the sorrow that
reforms me in line with my aspiration
repentance is when i feel sorrow that i'm not
in alignment with my aspiration
and then expressing that
lines me up
i should say the way of expressing sorrow that i'm out of alignment
that brings me into alignment that's the repentance which is recommended
and it also was quite it is not recommended that we resist going to confess and express the sorrow which of realigns us
it's not recommended that we resist that and feel uncomfortable about it but we may feel resistance do it we may feel uncomfortable i think there's a song sung by ray charles which says something like
sorry is the hardest word to say sorry is hardest word to say why is it so hard to say i'm sorry
you know the song
i maybe and maybe it wasn't raised your house but anyway
ah ha research that
a sometimes once in a lab set expressing sorrow might not you might not have resistance to as possible but a lotta times we do have some resistance to expressing our sorrow to somebody else and the verse after talking about the vow the verse explains
it recommends that not only do we practice confession of are distractions from the path of compassion
but we also checked to see if we feel sorrow about it and then also expressed sorrow by saying i'm sorry
i'm embarrassed i regret
i feel not good about being out when i'm not in alignment i feel
and then it says do it in the presence of buddha's and ancestors
now other words do at inter personally in your own mind and heart you notice that you've got distracted
you noticed any and you see how that to confess and you notice whether you feel uncomfortable about it and then you go and you do it in the presence of the boys and ancestors
and it's also good to do it in the presence of a preceptor i'm a teacher to teach us not necessarily the buddhism ancestors but you could say the teacher is kind of an ancestor
i am in some sense literally the ancestor of some people

i'm not saying i'm a buddha but i am kind of an ancestor in the bodies after present lineage has my name and it has the names of my hand sisters and it has a name of the people who follow me in the lineage so there are one or two or three generations following from this generation in the body size
for precept lineage than i'm in
so a person can come to me and confess and repent
in the presence of an ancestor but they can also invite the buddha's to come to and the other ancestors to come to and if you don't have an ancestor a human ancestor that you can meet with face to face like this person did
you can't wherever you are you can say
oh bodhisattva maha sad for us all buddhism ancestors please concentrate your hearts on me i you can say your name if you have a bodhisattva name you can say your body sought for name
if you don't have a boy sat for name you can say you're not body softening
so i can say oh bodhisattva my surface all buddhas and ancestors please concentrate your hearts on me i tensions enki buddha's disciple
feel sorrow that i was not kind to so and so yesterday afternoon
i feel sorrow that i got distracted this morning from practicing silence and stillness i'm sorry i want i and now i respire to remember and receive and practice and transmit
i reaffirm and recommit the practice to receive
and practice and transmit the bodhisattva precepts in my daily life
now thinking of that i don't feel uncomfortable about saying that the buddha's and ancestors but some you might if you actually in room to do that with somebody he might feel uncomfortable
but many people even though they feel uncomfortable
they come anyway they don't let your discomfort stop them from doing this practice which
the lofty ancestor of eternal peace says that it's a pure and simple color of true practice
the true mind of faith the true body of faith which is receive the precepts
aspire to them try to practice them and if there's any lack in the practice
or the faith
then you confessed and repented and that confession and repentance will melt away the root of getting distracted and actually i didn't mention faith but i guess faith is there in the sense that when these precepts are transmitted to us
when the buddha's mind is transmitted to us
i guess we have faith
that it would be good to receive it
the buddhist mine is being offered to us the buddhist precepts are being offered to us the precepts of compassion and wisdom are offered to us i guess it's our faith that we think it would be good to receive them so now i received them
and now that i've received them i aspire to practice them so the faith in a way as the reception
is opening our body and mind to
the practice of stillness
and then there's aspiration to practice that and then there's the practice which we at which most a visit occasionally get distracted from
and then there's the practice of confessing distraction and and revealing if we feel sorry about it
it's possible to
to confess before you feel sorry
and then say i'm confessing but i don't guess sorry yeah
but i decided she confessed before i forget now i feel sorry
this is the pure and simple color true practices whole process
receiving the gift of the buddhist mind aspiring to it
committing to practice it
and then sometimes practicing it and then if we get a free lack if our faces and a strong enough and our practice is not
there we confess i wasn't practicing i'm sorry and then we go back and receive again
aspire again practice again practice get distracted confess and repent
before you get distracted you don't have to confess and repent he just keep practicing until you get
i'm out of alignment
hey did you want to have something now okay go ahead
his passes

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i probably did say something like that
i do
what is secondly i'd agree with that but not completely
because use you said you using this gesture are going along and then you feel like you're off the path
you know you the past so can not a certainty
you aspire to walk the path of compassion and you have a story about what that is and used in any other story that you're off the path k
now you're not really off the path
you're always on the path
this is a teaching which has been given to you get this as good as mine put his mind is you're always on the bath
that's given to you now you receive that
now you get distracted from that
you're not get distracted from it but you're still on the path but you have a story i'm distracted from being on the path
but you're still on the path
and now
you notice that you're distracted and you confessed and repented track practice and you said and the confession repentance makes the whole thing part of
the path right
the confession repentance is definitely on the pets in my fact i don't even have a story that the confession and repentance is off the path the confession repentance is definitely downtown path
it's central path confession repentance is not a transgression
it's a realignment but the confession repentance is
happening in relationship to a story of transgression
can campeche a confession repentance is pure and simple compassion
and his compassion about a story that i transgressed
the story of confession repentance not the story of can of transgression it's the story of realignment
so when you said that the confession and repentance it be what you're saying is is is part of the patio never wasn't
which part one way to get distracted is to get distracted from confession and repentance when you should be doing it
but that's the thing that you to just a distraction that you imagined is part of the bath
and by confession repentance you realize that the story of transgression is part of the path and you really didn't transgress like somebody i heard recently said it's never too late to have a good childhood
in other words it's never too late to redeem every moment of wasted time
because you never did waste time
but if we don't confess and repent
we don't realize that we wasted time
have you we didn't waste time
we if we don't confess and repent in relationship to the story of wasted time
we don't redeem that story that story is not doesn't risk the story is not liberated it seems to be true i didn't waste time but if i confess and repent i wasted time
with wasted time is redeemed
so different confession repentance is is part of the practice is and the thing you're confessing is also a part of the practice but when you're confessing his i feel like i was not practicing then i my story as i was not kind to her
and by and i just i feel sorry about that
and by being kind of that story
you melt away the root of such stores
they melt away the stories that this is not a good life that this is not compassion they melt away
how well partly by receiving the precept and aspiring to it but also have to received the precept of compassion and aspire to it
when you get out of alignment with it confessing and repenting it melts away the root of getting out of alignment we never really are out of alignment
we think we are we need to acknowledge that otherwise the thought when need your knowledge and repented otherwise the story of non alignment will
seem to be true and will be miserable
miserable if you receive buddha's mind and you get in you aspire to it and you have this story that you're distracted from motor out of alignment with it you suffer but you're not out of alignment with it you just had this story so when you're practicing the boot away one of it one you know one
the things that happens one of the things that happens
trillions of times
is a story that you're out of alignment with the buddha away a story that you're out of alignment with complete perfect enlightenment that so stories arise ongoing like
because and you feel bad about it because you wanna be aligned
so i saw your hands a few times so you're here a few times who wants his hand or i see
and she didn't finish with some and cushion so ah yes john oh yeah john
gvi i for me delfina tracy's is not done
enterica karen
is it and read gay so
it's almost noon okay ready let's go so we like checks you electricity complete her
oh no
a second that was a setup and now when she said the set up that was the punchline
and now that was another punch line
and now let's see if you can do no punchline

is it six slowdown slowdown slowdown slowdown and say it again and let me see let me point as you say telstra again
the discordant you you felt him discordance with the sorrow with the repentance


let me just say i don't know why for starters
but so is it possible that you that you aspire to compassion and then you are
and then you'd react in certain way and you think that was not compassionate and you feel perfectly comfortable about it is possible i think yeah i people say the i was really nasty to sell so you know i was really cruel and i don't feel any sorrow about it is possible
ha ha is it
yeah it is possible sometimes and we have names for people like that
like what can we say we say second half we say psychopath
that they they can do something and they say that was really cruel or somebody says as crawley boom and they don't feel the sorrow is that possible yes
yes it is possible
do got it is possible now it's also possible that you that you think pope the story i was not a good disciple of buddha that on that occasion
not fact i even hated buddha on that occasion from buddha was stupid and i thought those boys presets are stupid and yeah i don't feel any sorrow and something people tell me that they do something like that and they don't feel sorrow and then they do
complete her you don't need to when you notice your shortcomings you don't instantly every time feel sorrow
but there's something about it's maybe just something made you say why and i say one possibility i don't not is true is that the nature of the of about aspiration well being is that when they receive something that they believe is like really important
like the cat's meow of life
ladies stacey this gorgeous example of compassion and they just think that so beautiful
at so it's it's like that's the truth in my life that's what i want and now here comes the aspiration i was that i commit to that
okay this happens to pick this is our nature we we sometimes do have faith that something is really good and we aspire to it and then we don't follow it and we notice it and we don't necessarily feel bad about it but sometimes we do feel bad when we don't follow what we thought wow
as the greatest thing and and then we also aspired to it and i've also told you many times that people see these precepts of buddha and they think they're great but they don't dare aspire to them because they sense as a human being if i would aspire to them and commit
to them i would be more susceptible to feeling sorrow if i didn't follow through but if it's just gorgeous and beautiful
yeah and i was bars but up paris aspire to it and commit to it than if i don't follow and it may not be so painful but if we do commit to it
and neither commit to and with an ancestor right they're saying good good are you really want to do this whom you really want to do this you really wonder this we going to do this from now on and even after realizing buddhahood we wanna do this years after going through a process that that we have a sense that if i don't follow through and now i'm probably going to
feel nuts i might feel regularly sorrowful if i don't follow through on these things does it have to be sorrowful
no it isn't sometimes it isn't but if you do want this thing if you want something and you commit to it than if you don't follow it you might feel sorrow
and if you do if you do feel are of
i'm not telling you should if you do then disclosing that
will bring you into alignment with what you want
cake get the picture once again you see something this is a life i want you receive that you commit to it and then you practice it and if you don't
and you notice it noticing that you're not practicing it noticing that story will help you
yeah why you didn't notice the start so you got to start noticing that story will be part of a weekly t realigning and the sorrow if you have it than disclosing the sorrow will realign you if you don't have it then you don't have it it's it's about being yourself right
if you got sorrow if you if you noticed you didn't do it you want if you notice is what you do want if you notice if you commit if you notice that you don't commit
but for those who do receive these precepts and do
receive me is to do believe that these are good and do commit and take the cats
the chance of commitment and all that involves which is a possibility if you don't follow through you might feel
that's a good so some one teacher said as a student
or the student as a teacher what's the greatest happiness in a teacher said to follow the bodhisattva precepts
to to to receive them and aspire to them and follow that is the greatest happiness to receive the mind of compassion of great compassion buddhists compassion to receive it commit to it and practice it that's the greatest happiness what's the greatest unhappiness
it's to not if is to not follow through on what i just said is to receive aspire and not follow through that's the greatest unhappiness
people who do not receive the buddhist precepts and inspired to them who do not receive them in aspire to them and don't follow them they're not as unhappy as the people who do receive them and aspire to him
isn't that strange that's what a strange way the people who are committed to the buddha's way suffer more deeply than those who are not
when they're off base that's what puts it back on where they want to be
and the people who do not commit
they're not getting pushed as hard back onto the path because and they didn't commit to it so committing to it than what what happens is a bunch of guardians come to help you stay on it
so you if you think if you look at a boot and said how gorgeous how wonder for how adorable and stop there
then the guardians don't help you as much they can maybe keep offer you the opportunity where he wants his mood again issued again he was booed again here's enlightenment again the keep offering it but when you commit than you than than the guardians come and say but now that you committed it's not gonna be so easy to not follow through
do understand that
and in our ceremony we say are you going to continue to do the practice of in the ceremony where you will see buddhist precepts we say are you going to continue this practice of confession and repentance
in other words are you going to keep feelings are you going to the i got welcome the guardians of repentance to come and poke at you and say he didn't follow through on what you said you weren't followed suit right
that's part of our ceremony
do you can are you gonna keep continued to practice repentance sorrow and disclosing it to the buddha's from now on and even after realizing buddhahood you said you would
anyway i didn't want to talk about this today and we are
this is the we're talking about the pure and simple color of to practice
and his godson
it's got some grit to it but if you don't enter it
it doesn't have good
its days as a great possibility
perfect wisdom and great compassion how gorgeous yes
well the tracy addressed a little bit of when i was feeling but i i still i feel like in the question of distraction that it's possible to be practicing with distraction because distraction is an intimate part
of our
mind and not feel it as a transgression and not feel remorse but rather feel compassion or he were wondering if i when you feel compassion to transgression year not transgressing yeah yeah okay so yeah okay fact
only like okay
you don't have to feel what sad and bad
i guess i'll wait a second wait a second wait a second you said every time you feel every time you feel distracted their said but every time i see that i my mine gets every time you feel distracted you don't have to feel sorrow you said you can be here with it with
concasseur yes but if you feel if if you have distraction and you're there with compassion there's no distraction you didn't get distracted not what you'd call distraction don't know you you for in you you called a distraction can you got to story of distraction okay
and you said but then you the than your compassionate with it if you have a story of distraction and your compassionate wizard you're not distracted from compassion
okay to the yeah yeah you have you that's the path is you have the story of distraction and your compassionate with it no need no need for repentance because you did your job
okay now what about when you distracted and you don't bring compassion to it then you have a story i was distracted and i wasn't and i wasn't compassionate now if you're really fast and your compassion with that than you don't have any sorrow there if you're not the slightest bit out of alignment
huge terrible story of distraction comes up and you're not out of alignment you're right there with it
there's no sorrow because you didn't get out of alignment
gay now can you give me another story even more monstrous a more terrible distraction and see if when it comes up as soon as it comes up i mean it with compassion
why is there like a hesitations they can either i don't want to practice compassion with that one
what then then yeah then you've just got out of alignment you missed your chance
but if you're right there with compassion with whatever story comes
then you don't have to
nothing to confess nothing to repent
it's when you have a story
distraction came up and i was mean to it and i was mean to myself for being mean anna
if that's the story you're not yet read you say i accept it and i want to confess it once you start to confess it now you're practicing compassion again confessing repentance is compassion towards
the transgressions
and all the time you're on the path you're never off the path
and i think i was having a kind of a sense that will help let's see when i when when one is me you know i mean to myself for oh i did this yeah that's it
that's a work
that's an opportunity for compassion
and if you miss the opportunity for compassion
that's an opportunity for compassion
missing opportunities for compassion are opportunities for compassion and the form that would be appropriate on that occasion for myself his confession and repentance
if i'm talking about my missing cook if i miss the opportunity for an impassioned than i confess and repent that's my compassion and that brings me back into alignment if i see you and you tell me that you are not being compassionate than maybe i don't maybe i feel compassion for you
you so i have to confess anything in repentance and because i feel compassion for you telling me that you got distracted and then maybe i ask you how how are you doing with that and maybe you tell me
i'm practice compassion can confession repentance so now you're back online too
but i don't can i don't confess and repent
your distractions i confess and repent mind and that brings me back into alignment but i always was it just said i had a story that i wasn't and by confessing and repenting and i i don't believe that story anymore because confessing and repenting is in line
like somebody told me it actually she's very troubled about some of them is people in zan history that seem to have done some unkind things just so what do we do about that when our lineage has been no a history of doing some unkind things i say we
we confess and repent repent as we do
well but it's it's my lineage i'm confessing my lineage has a certain history and i'm sorry about that ice i share responsibility for that but i don't i don't think i did that i think but i do think i received a lineage which has asserted history and i accept
responsibility for that so maybe and maybe what i confess and repent is any anyways i would do something like that
and i confess i confess my what
my vulnerability can make the same mistakes
i think karen was an action than delfina

the history of condition

no control
a working definition of compassion
how did these issues of responsibility blame and control fit in with confession
with compassion
one person was this is
but responsibility is that the working definition
and then the other is how is that
that i think that's so that's a good definition of compassion unusual but complete responsibility no blame and giving up trying to control
not trying to control beings it
but it is not trying to control us into enlightenment
what does not really
in control obviously
i wouldn't say what is unsuccessful but but it does not try to control but it just keeps offering these precepts
now trying to control us into receiving them are aspiring to them just continually offering and is working on herself while she offers to make sure she's not trying to control people and the people don't receive him she doesn't blame them
and she's responsible for them and she's responsible for her actions and for them so we were responsible for each other we're not can and we're not controlling each other and we're not blaming each other in compassion
and i don't blame myself i just for if i if i do something on car if i have the story that i'm being unkind
i don't blame myself i just accept responsibility for my action
and and that's not all except responsible for at that moment i would i accept responsibility for the consequences for other people in myself of my actions and i accept responsibility for your actions and i don't try to control mice i give up trying to control myself and i give up trying to control others i
trust the practice to make things go the way i want them to
rather than me controlling things to go the way i want them to
i give up me controlling myself on the path and trust the practice to control me on the path to guide me on the path davina

i definitely help you and you help me we help each other yes we're helping each other
a tuned to the proper alignment yes
we're working on that together
i made i may have the thought you're out of alignment
i might have that thought but then that's something for me to be taken care of myself and if i take care of that thought in myself as so and says out of alignment i'm demonstrating to them how to align
i'm dems there you're watching me right now align with my ideas right now you're seeing how i'm doing it
and if one my one of my ideas might be dauphine is in perfect alignment
i might have that thought
but how i deal with that thought is was important to transmit
i mean that's what we do transmit we do transmit how we're dealing with our ideas in each other
so if i have ideas of respect for you or disrespect
the idea of respect isn't the same as respect
but i might try to remember respect to help me a line with it and i tried my might remember the idea of disrespect to help me a line with respect when i have the idea of disrespect

here in a reading group

well first of all
i government has a special meaning so i would i'm not use the word governments right now school me is actually the way you relate to things when you have perfect wisdom
it is a technical term in buddhism but you can talk about compassion which is not yet skill for me discover means his way up the evolutionary process but you can be compassionate long before you have skillful means
so what's the compassionate response when you're feeling uncomfortable in this reading group
how can you be compassionate to you're feeling of discomfort
you're feeling discomfort is calling out for compassion
you feel any discomfort doesn't sound to me like something to confess and repent
it sounds like just something simply calling for compassion to be generous towards it to be careful of it to be patient with it to take good care of it
this feeling of discomfort
now if you had the thought i wish that person who i'm feeling uncomfortable about would get a serious illness and die soon that would be like
something unkind that you're thinking but feeling discomfort if somebody is being rude to somebody else or to you that feeling of discomfort is not necessarily that's not transgression and necessarily
but if you'd had ill will towards the person that's who you see as you're uncomfortable with that will be something to be compassionate with in the form of confession repentance or confession at least but you might not actually and go that far you might actually just feel on com
double so some things that arise are not shortcomings or lack of practice they're just feelings and then you can be compassionate with them now if i have a feeling that's calling up for compassion and me
and i and i miss the chance of being compassionate to it i might notice oh i miss my chance i'm sorry i confess i missed i missed a good opportunity there i'm sorry
now if i was with you and i saw you being uncomfortable i thought you were uncomfortable you were and then i saw you take good care yourself i would think great and but if i could see that
if i saw you at speaking disrespectfully of someone if i thought you were had this story i might say to you at some point dauphine i had this fantasy that you were fully disrespect towards that person is that true
and i might ask you because i have this sense that you told me you wanted to practice respect for everybody i thought you told me that didn't you tell me that
yeah you did it and i asked you over and over the do you want to do there and you said yes i do
so now i'm here to support you if i ever have a fantasy that you're not be respectful i think you would like me to find some way to ask you to how did you feel did you feel like you're being respect when you might say the i did you might tell me about i say oh i get it okay fine and you welcomed me to inquire are you following through on his precepts
so if i do see you out of alignment with his precepts i might say i have this dream that you're out of alignment couldn't you want to hear about it and you might say i tell me
and i tell you to say no no way i was like perfectly enlightenment or you might say yeah i was out of alignment thank you
america i noticed it even before you brought up with me i was i will i actually noticed that i was are at the same time you saw me
looking out of alignment i was feeling out of alignment
you might you might feel that way if someone might come and check with you did you think you were being kind was also in our occasion you say no and said i didn't think so either okay that we help each other this way and makes sense john
oh boy started ritual
he said
listen to you talking about the relationship of the depth of
the death of sorrow
they get the story
teacher for the callison on his forehead from
frustration and it made me wonder
obviously he felt very deeply by his commitment that is ritual like the means of concussion so secret casino
could have been
and and we do original here that's how i started we will we rituals off are things we repeat so we we start these meetings here we we recite these verses it's kind of a ritual we do here and when we say
there are countless lives to hear the to dime
that's a time for us to check in do i feel that today is that am i really making a commitment do i think that would be good
to hear the huge army
yeah dem i committing again yeah
and it's a commitment is really deep i think that makes me more susceptible to slight distract slight variations slight lack of alignment the people who make the deeper commitment tend to be more sensitive to being out of alignment with it
have some people say what i don't want to make a deeper one then
but it's a good enough for most people as a gradual process as they become more deeply committed they find out they can tolerate the sensitivity and then they go deeper because they feel like i think i could tolerate a little bit more sensitivity a little bit more awareness up of more more subtle
miss alignments
or you could say more and more subtle
proper attunements
so rituals are times to check in like it hiva i confess it how my interested karma from beginning this
that can you can have a deeper are shallow feeling of that but cannot not even say it he might not have the opportunity to see how you feel about it and so we say these vows and always at the end of this talk we're going to say in a vase again and you can listen to those valves as you say them and hear them
and sin check do you really feel these things be really want
deliberate all beings from suffering you want to take everybody across
do the other shore of peace yeah we do that to keep realigning
and we and we and we have different feelings at different times

this a piece here
for me it's important to ah
professional to absolutely
if i heard someone to actually make a amends
here is efficiency yeah i agree making amends and the way and if if so again if you if you commit to do such to do to practice compassion and if you don't making amends starts often he start
with confessing that you'd on this occasion you were not and you're sorry that's the beginning of making amends than the rest of making amends as you try again and again the making amends goes on forever but it starts when we when we receive the bodhisattva precepts we say in the ceremony
we say we start with confession and repentance we start with making amends for for our ancient called all of it we make amends by confessing and then we and then we go to practice the precepts
but making them is the person that we don't do because i mean that by that we won't do is add the ceremony we do not have time to go to the all the people we made that we've heard and we don't even know all the people we heard if you know a particular person you hurt
you might be able to apologize to that particular person
yes but that's not that's not that's not the whole story of making amends if you polled say you're sorry and then you hit him again that's not making amends making amends is confessing that you're sorry and then to commit to not doing it again but it's an official for me if this is an official
know the terrorists to have to go and make amends personnel little a person i've heard that's why it's not necessary to go to the person but you need to go to somebody
and oftentimes it's easier to go this to the buddhism ancestors because the person you tell might say to you my punch you in the face and tell you that that was a lousy apology
you know
i'm not even you agree with what
the way for me it opens the door to look at myself off the hook for potential more harm because it's easy i don't have to go to a person i recommend just enough
it gets you off the hook if you don't have to go to the person i'm not saying you don't have to go to the person i'm saying it might not be good idea to go to tell the person it might not be helpful right away
he yeah but in the meantime you can go to work here at the wait to go talk to the person
most people who come to tell me about their lack of compassion have not yet told the other person
about it yet
most time mostly tell me first i'm the first one to hear and
yeah and then later they might be able hotel the other person but sometimes to tell the other person but there's still not done they want to tell me to where you can tell the other person but you're supposed to also supposed to is also helpful to tell the as and ancestors not just the person
so you tell the partner tell the person when it's helpful to that person
not just to you tell the person might help them to that person
and then nothing period but don't forget to tell the buddhas and ancestors and you can do that in every case
and the meantime you you're getting when you tell the boys and ancestors you're getting ready to find the time to tell that person
which may never happen and may not be necessary
situations that i thought i need to make amends the up on that something will turn other shifted
and i don't know what
obvious that now
yeah i know lie well i think i don't know why either but probably you confessed and repented he inside and you may have done it to the buddhist nance has just do it became okay with say what i'm saying
as and that's why it's good to go and tell the buddhas and ancestors because they're kind of smart
they're trained at this kind of stuff so they might notice something that you didn't
and they might actually city you should go tell that person or them i say if it's not necessary to tell that person they might say actually if you tell that person i think i say you've already taught you've already told somebody told me and you did a good job and i i examine the situation with you and you you seem to
understand what you did and you're sorry about it this is good i can i am actually know the person you're talking about i think that would not be helpful to tell them i think actually it might really discourage them
but you the work you've done by telling me will help your relationship with them and i think yeah i think you feel clearer about how to proceed with this person now that you've told me i think you're going to do a better job in your relationship and telling them i wouldn't advise it but again you're not only my control so you do you want but i don't
i think that person would be
not served by hearing the confession so that example is it's often good for parents to apologize for their children often
it's often good to do so
but sometimes there's certain things you should not tell children because they were really confuse them and discourage them
sorry but you need to have somebody to tell that stuff to that you can't tell children
and buddhism as if she's you can tell everything to and then they can tell you
who you should go talk to if necessary and they do sometimes they you should go talk to someone start to
a la times i don't feel necessary to for people to tell anybody they've already told somebody
a person whose job it is to listen to it has an artifact
so that's good good job let's keep it up once in a while i say or tell somebody else i would say less than five percent to i recommend they go talk to somebody else either the person that they did it with or somebody else who needs to know

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are trying to reconcile that you're saying with all the skills for human interaction identify much more compassion under the for people are although
really noticed it go
true how that
to please himself in his attic already
so i fixed some way because that seems like write something reminds us enough
okay hairston and so
yeah your practices to notice it and let it go to write that the ideal
do i think idea ideal partridge in or on we're not getting a dido practices right would you say this is this is your practice of noticing and letting go so right
they are here to
who it per se
well i think you say yeah
the idea the idea the idea that the idea you want to have that's your business so when where you want to be lined up with what you are maybe don't want to get into alignment he just somebody you want that if you want in in the question of who what
yeah well that sounds fine you you wanna do

say he does say something delusions so you're gonna give that up
oh okay
so your ear you can't give up delusion did you say
oh wait a second
dude did you say did you say you can't give up delusion my create worlds
did you say you don't want to create more delusion
i i don't think i said i didn't say i didn't say that stuff you're saying
so and i i'm deluded haim deluded to so we're both diluted and i want to give up my delusions
and i agree to delusion
my delusion is i wanna give up delusion and so that's where that i wanna give up delusion and like i'm in a dominant make i make evolved to give up illusion in just a minute i'm going to say delusions are inexhaustible i vowed to give them up
that's i vowed to give up divisions and giving up delusions is not not having any it's giving up whatever delusions there are whatever delusions there are throughout the universe i want to give them all up that's my vow as my wish is to give
up delusion
in know and it's actually it's actually giving me it when i make that lol i just feel full of love and peace and freedom and courage when i say that to me this is a path of happiness and freedom and peace here's the
path of happiness for him for me
delusions are inexhaustible i vow to let them go this is the path of happiness for me
and if anybody says what i just said a decision i say thank you very much
for calling my practice division it's fine i'm happy for you to call it he can also call it enlightenment if you want to but i'm little more scared of that way
are you ready for our vows
hey i already ready for some bows okay here we go me or intuition equally extend to every be the place where is the to marry
the way the numberless i love to say exam delusions are inexhaustible hi to and then dharma
gates are boundless hi to enter them
as way is unsurpassable i vow to become